Irony of My Boom

A feeling deprived of acceptance by most,
Something not comprehended by many.

Tick - advancement - boom!

Decision did not seek,
Result created an unfortunate victim.

The obsession keeps getting better,
Bloody exsists a pun on it,
As helpless as an addict dancing to a force.

Revolt creates a SATAN...
Acceptance not even an option: the trigger is one sided...

Pleading for an aid,
Anything to pull it's wreath.

Insanity evoked just tears apart,
Self alone is the resort,
But self alone is the slave!

I cannot go on like this.

Anything...Just Anything...to relieve...!

Welcome Back

Hmmm i can jus imagine my blog screamin that to me since i came back to rite on it after a lil more than a mnth...Oh n wile i checked da other blogs it seems every person in dubai is very bizi n doesnt hav time to blog orrr there nudin more left to rite bout....sheeesh...wat a disappointment!..

Ok so it has been more than a mnth since i shifted here...still cant accept the fact dat i m a blore chick now...arghh....well a lot has happnd since i moved here but nooo dun worry i wont rite all of it...i hav learnt to spare ppl a lil more often these days u no.

I m livin wid jan, nisha, nitya, farzu and stef in their flat...oh and saph also.so seven of us..but we usually hav a lot of other ppl spendin time at the house...most of the time wht i do is eat n sleep..most of ma money goes in eatin n travelling...thot ma dad wud get me a bike but dat he says has to wait...

Managin internship, coll n sportz was a bad bad thing...but today last day of work n after dat things will bcum a lottt better...oh a wasp kinda insect bit me on my left thigh jus above the knee wich waz sucha bad thing...i went to da doc n had to take a tetanus (hope i spelt dat rite), 2 diff tablets fer 3 days and a cream wich i still apply on the bite...it had bcum as big as a lemon but is much better now...

Today we all goin to mlore coz we are bored here..hpe dat turns out fun...besides all da happenin in blore i miss drivin in dubai, beaches, gud food (eat junk n chaat most of the time), chocolates (choice usually restricted to Dairy Milk) ma family and house, ma bball frds n playin wid them ( here i m in the mounts team but its nudin like wht playin bball used to be fer me there), sheesha and knowin all da roads and places there...

I m sure there is a lot more but i cant remember and cannot possibly type all dat...

Newaz i guess hav ritten enuf bout to fill in fer a post...shud update in another decade... :P
Till den fer ne1 who still, by mistake also turns up here, wich i sincerely doubt.....toodles and God Bless....

Amazing Bus Journey

Right so ma prev post didnt say much...well frm da time i hav cum to mumbai damn i hav been pretty pissy here n there....it waz pretty borin da two days i stayed der n all i did waz watch tv, go to ma uncle's house n den get attacked by a few mosquitoes...i had many strokes of bad luck man...ma laptop mayb delayed so dats like shit...i thot i wud survive on ma mp3 but guess wah dat new piece of shit got spoilt on its own...sum internal part burnt or sumthin....so i hav sent it back to get it replaced....blast it!!!

Ok so ysterday afternoon i left fer blore at arnd 1 45.. 1st we had diz non a/c bus till andheri n boii thnks to mumbai traffic it took sum lil more dan an hour n i got all sweaty...n den da next bus waz a/c duh coz we had a/c bus booked n it waznt so bad da bus....da journey waz said to b fer 18 hours but da driver said it will take atleast 20 hours....*WTF???* well da evenin waz pretty ok..watched 2 movies wich dey showed apne and good boy bad boy... :P da nite waz da most shittiest thing ever....i jus started chumin ysterday n dat waz a bitch wile travellin in a bus...ma calves were actin funny in da nite so i cudnt sleep....ma left arm waz hurtin n i started thinkin wht if i suffer frm heart attack n die? :P? oh n also i had had a bottle of pepsi so i wanted to pee earlier dan i xpected i wud wan to after movin frm da dinner stop... well newaz coz of all dese stupid things i cudnt sleep evn though i waz so exhausted...n da rest of da bus waz sleeepin so peacefully wich made me feel even more worse...i cried like da whole nite in frustration n pityin ma poor self.... IT WAZ BAD!!! durin da entire journey der were like about a dozen short stops n 2 proper stops fer like dinner n breakfast today....hey n i can still feel a lil numbness in ma ass frm sittin fer so longgg....20 hours u no...yea der were breaks n stops but still trust me it waz bad...

Finally i reached today at 11 in da mornin n me n ma dad r stayin in diz shitty hotel wich has indian toilets widout flush...ARGH!!! newaz i came to da gang's flat to meet dem n find out wht da admission scene is like...welll seems like its gonna take longer dan i thot n will b a lil more complicated dan i hoped....but it will b a while till i no fer sure whts happenin...another wait fer me!! ok then!!!!

Newaz now dat i poured ma heart out here i think i will end it...too much of frustration in one post is not gud i no....

*End*

Aamchi Mumbai :P

Yaha fellaz i reached mumbai safely yesterday at arnd one in the mornin...damn...ma new house wer we jus recently shifted is pretty neat n spacious...now withhin next 2 days hopefully i shall leave mumbai n go to blore to try n get admission...damn yst in cab to ma house waz kinda weird...i started thinkin how things can change....damn...i usually cum here fer vaccations n now its gonna b like i will cum to dubai fer vaccations....shit....unless i dun get admission or sumthin...lolzz....dat wud b funny den... all da hype n da farewell n da miss us' n luv us' will go to waste...

Da weather is pretty eccky out here....got to witness da rains frm da cab itself n right now i waz so bored at home dat i jus got here to sit onl...i miss ma dxb pc... :( well diz thing is so kewl dat wile i waz so intensly typin ma fingers off in diz window fer ma blog dat ma pc restarted n thnks to da automatic savin sum of it waz still der...so i continued...

Newaz i cant think of much to rite bout n diz is not da kind of pc wich gives me da feel to blog...i shall return...till den whoever still reads diz...tata...n pray i survive ma massive mosquito attacks...:P

P.S - Habbie 100th post to ma most dearest bloggie...absolutely luv it... :P

Toodles...

Fun Came

Hmm the blogging world has hushed down again....damn life is so bizi... :P

18th june: last xam n da end of second semester... me saph n aakanksha went to al nasr fer ice skating....dey both skate pretty ok...i used to but den lost touch n dat day again i kinda got da drift back...we clicked quite sum pictures n it waz lotta fun...

(me n saph wile skating.... :) )

Dey tried droppin me down but den finally dey didnt...oh but dey did harass me wid massive ice attacks.. after skatin we were fulin arnd in da park(lolz me chained...in da park...:P)

Den went to lamcy wer dese ppl had barf ka gola n i went to check out skates fer saph...next we headed home but da wait fer da bus waz a bitch...

21st june: saph treated us dat day fer her bday wich waz on 22nd june...(me mel n saph in da rec room...bored in da mornin...:P)

Early mornin we went to coll coz we all n matty were gonna make her cut cake...since matty cudnt cum later fer da treat... aak baked an awesum cake n it waz lotsa fun dirtyin saph's pretty face... :P den da four of us (me,aak,saph,mel n merw) took da karama bus n went to saph's place...(mel n saphie in da karama bus...)

She cooked pasta fer us wich she thot luked like white goo but i didnt think so n tasted wow at da same timee...i hogged da most :D ... next four of us minus merw went to wafi city encounter zone... we got diz 2 hours ka band wid wich we cud go in all da playin areas not da arcade games if i made sense...1st we saw 'da tomb' a horror house kinda thing wich waz not scary n we were laughin wen we came out....mel's screamin waz jus awesummm.. :) next we played in da crystal maze n our resultz said we were da top team of da day so far... after dat we sat in diz mini roller coaster sorta ride wich we cudnt get da enuf of...it waz so kewll went all upside down n sidewards n everythn... (dese were da blades we gav saphy...)

Next waz rollerblading wer mel didnt cum n da rest three of us went...da blades were stinky, half broken n so uncomfortable but we still had lotta fun...finally we took a cab n got down near aak's place...mel n saph went to aak's house n i went home frm wer i went to ajman....

21st (evenin) 22nd nd 23rd june: i met nauseen after soo long...dat is havin a stayover...it waz so kewl...goin crazie over random things, laughin like wohhh, eatin unda noodles, buyin n eatin junk in da nite and watchin movies....Fun Came - Kewlness Plus! :D

Today after cumin back i hav jus been sittin onl and den i waz sortin out ma folders...i waz readin a few old saved convos n omgg sum r so funny, sum so stupid n sum so freaky n summm jus so cute...newaz its still not decided wether i leave or stay...hopefully by monday i will no fer sure n final....

P.S - aak, saph, mel, naus n jan (miss ya biatch!!) i luv ya guys soo much... :$ yes pick on me now...fine... i m used to it...:P

end...!

Boredom Can Make U Write

Heya its meenal reporting from the college library... i had my second last xam for the sem and it went fine...da shitty way in wich i prepared it went pretttyy gudd...yahaaa!! so i had to stay back coz i hav to talk to ma prof. bout transferin procedures n shit...

Damn i hav never seen ma coll so deserted... i mean i no we cum to study in a desert but den xam time is like u cant see ne1...DUH!!! coz dey r in da rooms ritin deir xamz..! oopz...dat waz a puke of boredom overdose...back to normal...ahem ahem!!

As i was sayin i waited outside ma prof.'s room fer half an hour since he was bizi talkin to 2 other ppl...n den finally he came outta his room...but LO! he had to go fer xam invigilation so he says u go to da library n i shal talk to u after i m done wid ma invigilation duty...right so i came to da library n omggg its never been so quiet...hardly 5-6 ppl sittin n worse is da other room wich has da pcs n da internet...wen i entered der were only 2 ppl sittin in da whole room n it waz so bloody quiet dat i cud clearly hear da cpus' goin 'whissssss'..i got diz sudden feelin like i waz trapped in a desert wid no escape...not a very gud feelin...well rite now a couple of more ppl came in n der is sum sort of talkin agn...but dat silence felt weird fer sum weird reason!!!

So i m stuck here till 4 30 wid only 2 cigs to keep me company and i think i m hungry so i will go n eat sumthin before i meet ma HOD...

Shucks its so bad to see wht boredom can do to sumone!!!

*Bangs Head*

Yes! i m back to whining again!! wtf naa...?

I hav xamz and i DO NOT feel like studyin...well i keep doin dat durin all ma xamz but diz time its a lil more dan normal not wantin to study...arghh..

I do not want to leave ma college and go to india...On one side ma folks say i hav no other choice and on da other side dey randomly say fine den u dun go but u help here n stay...decide already will ya??!!!

I really really wana play sum bball...dats like one of ma ultimate "habbie cumz" thingy...cant wait till i play....

I m very addicted to facebook even though half da things we do on it r so lame but guess wht i still accept all invites to try those things n i try dem also.

Going to da beach feeling is happenin a lil more dan too much..i used to say i get weird vibes frm da beach...omggg wer da world is headed to? :P

Der is a BABA Mithun movie playin on star gold rite now wich is annoyin even though i aint watchin da tv...

I waz so freggin touched today...professor, a couple of frds...i dun care call me a sentimental freak but *sniff sniff* came...

Every chotu thing gives me a sign n i get all OMGG!!! omg i suck!!(correkt no jan!?)

Ok i will spare u fer a while. Stop.

Backward Flip

We all go thru phases in life...damn i hav been one of da few ppl i think whoz been one of da most yedaa ppl....hmm...i hav been cleanin ma inbox n old messages n shit...its like i hav so much of junk like fwrds saved wich at dat point of time were like omg n now is like omggg wtf waz i thinkin....SHEESH!!! dey are like pointless to me now...

There are like so many emailz wich i hav ritten r like so emo, crappy, kiddish...omggg i cant believe i waz dat once upon a time...oh but den if i hadnt been dat there....den i wudnt be me dat is wht i m here, right now....shit its so awesome to see ur own self change like nethin in sum 2 years of time...its as if sumone swirled a magic wand or sumthin...however i still keep few things like convos, fwrds, picz, emailz and so on maybe jus fer a word or a sentence in it wich meanz a lot to me...

Another thing i realised is dat i havn't ritten sumthin in soo long...i miss ritin...diz post jus triggered my senses fer a possible thing i cud rite bout but den i hav an xam tomm so i dun hav time...n den later i hope i still remember wht i thot of rite now..

Besides a few things i really wish i cud do and have...
1. Get Drunk.
2. Buy an ipod and a new fone.
3. Get Black and Yellow bball shoes.
4. Go to the beach and sit near da water.
5. Go clubbing.
6. Play basketball.
7. Lastly do one thing wich i wudnt get to do regularly..sumthin different, out of da box, sumthin new...though i duno wat but yea...

I am in a very weird and different mood right now...its like i m happie and i guess i m bored... :P oh nd i hav an xam tomm nd as usual i don't feel like studyin...

Hey shud i stop ritin...?
Ok i got the answer...!

Online Tests

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You Have Low Self Esteem 52% of the Time

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You Are 33% Jealous

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You Are the Ego

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Enuf fer now...i shall take more n post more later... :D

I m In Loveee :P

Yeah i no dese days i blog a lil more than often...well i keep gettin dese cravings of ritin ne not so important stuff also on my blog....*thinks*...hmm i waz actually wonderin wht to put up but my thots abruptly stopped wen i got diz orkut mesg....

jayadurai muthiah <1146428959300083611@mail.orkut.com>
to me 3:08 am (0 minutes ago)

hi dear

i love uuu
will u be my friend??????

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Ok since i am sittin jobless right now i went to check out whoz da dude who sends me diz "wonderful" mesg....

Apparently hez an easy going 26 years old dude who lives alone, with kids and with parents *rolls eyes*

Hez done a bachelor's degree and is an engineer in da manufacturin n chemicals field....

Now da brownie....his personal profile.... :D

jai

ideal match: girl with a mole on her nose,overlapped teeth...with a pony tail (hilarious)
first thing you will notice about me: hair (i noticed his malu moochi:P)
height: 178 centimeters
build: athletic ( i dun think so)
looks: average (hahah...hes jus messin wid ya)
best feature: chest ( diz was da ultimate one!!!)
turn ons: assertiveness
five things i can't live without: parents,soccer,blue flower,rain,tress (ok then)
in my bedroom you will find: blue flower (ahaan right!!!)

You Are Next!

Hello!!! How r... :P sory desi soaps influence...jus watchin da awards....

Oh today i had one of my kickass individual presentation...fer political science...my topic waz north korea - the nuclear program....damn i still cant believe i went thru da entire torture of stayin up da whole nite fer my presentation today....*yawns* but den da presentation was pretty ok...and one thing less frm my saga of extreme sloggin...

Wht got me to post is dat as i was watchin da other presentations goin on...i cudnt stop gigglin fer petite things like rong prounounciations, fake accent and stuff like dat...diz made me wonder how funny or bad wud it be wen i wud b doin my presentation...coz even i had moments wer i suffered frm acute memory lapses....i had times wen i struggled to pronounce sumthin as simple as nuclear non proliferation treaty!!! yea but den obviously i waz laughin at few xtreme cases of funny presentations...coz sum of dem were like pathetic...dey shud hav seriously done atleast a lil preparation considerin dat it waz a presentation n dat too final fer da subject...

I jus got diz another sudden thing like usually we ignore whtever bad a fellow frd does...u no wht i mean...any random classmate whom u wudnt care much is whtever or unless its a frd or a gud frd den u totally understand...we even refrain frm askin questions after da presentation...

Ey yaar i wana see myself doin a presentation now as an audience...y isnt der a method wer u can see ur own self as a diff person...?!!?

Newaz i m confused now n i m not sure wht all i wanted to say n wht all i actually said...

I m done....

Sputter.. Sputter.. Cough.. Cough..

I realised i wana blog before da saga of my xtreme sloggin starts frm next week...not dat i wont blog if sumthin worthwile cumz up but den oho i will barely hav time fer meself....

Ysterday i took jan to academic city since she had to meet a few ppl frm my coll n see da coll itself... our planz were all set till ma mum told me da car is screwed up..argghh!! sum battery issue...but we still took da car...n it did stop..right in middle of da maktoum bridge... :D but coincidently zaher n one of his frd were passin by bout da same time frm der so we called dem fer help...a police dude also came n dey charged da battery of ma car... it started movin agn...yayzz...n we reached sumwer close to rashid hospital but lo! it stopped agn...so zaher n his frd both da poor lads had to push ma car till we parked it in rashid hospital parkin lot itself...den me n jan went along wid dem to coll in deir car...thnxx so much u guys fer cumin to our rescue...

After we reached coll it waz soo much fun dat day....i think we laughed a lil more dan xtra dat day...we even indulged in skylers fer breakfast....me n merwyn cudnt stop pickin at each other...mel waz da cutest thing ever as usual but wait actually jan n merw were gangin up on me, oh but dey didnt get newer much.. :P

After dat we took da deira bus n headed back home coz we had to go out in da evenin agn...da entire bus journey we kept clickin pictures in weird n g poses....by da time we reached home we had 23 picz (found out later) + 2 clicked in coll before.... :P it waz one heck of an awesum day!!!

In da evenin me, jan, jo, aman nd mohit met up in atrium fer shisha..dat waz another fun came thing...aman n mohit left to get sum book frm deir coll n den agn me jan n jo were goin crazie wid lame jokes n lotsa more picz....aman came back and den later he dropped me n jan home also...oh but i waz drivin his car....fun came...thnxxx so much aman fer lettin drive nd droppin.. :D
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On other notes i m kinda feelin proud of maself today....i no y n fer wat n i m actually glad fer it....dey r small things but den i m glad bout da way i take dem n da way i react to dem n da way i m thinkin dese days which usually otherwise i get all omgg bout.... i hav a lota calm arnd me...i like.... oh nd den ders keep holdin on by avril lavigne wich i got to no frm jan...dat song is like one of da best things ever....i luv it!!!

Newaz i think i m done fer now...toodles... :P

TicK Tock and Wham!!!

Hmmm past 3 weeks had been like kewlness fer me...yea der has been like a lot of stuff like assignments n presentations in coll wich get pissin off but despite all dat i actually was more like wht i used to be.....nudin called blahness and pissiness and whining was existing fer a change...

I was more like dancing arnd, foolin arnd wid all frds, taking things so calmly dat even calmly wud feel hyper in front of my calmness...

But after so many days yesterday like haw bcame....Nudin biggie but den i thot i had cum a long way and den i kinda realised dat i hav hardly moved... :P dat kinda disappointed me....

It started frm a random playing arnd n ended up into discussin old stuff n pros n cons n etc etc...

Sarah stayed over and i m sure i did a very gud job of speaking da crap outta my mouth n her ears lissenin the shit outta my crap...!!!

But on other news...i dun like family issues...dey alwaz piss me off very easily... and also i hav athletics tomm so all da best to me...

Oh but i no i still need to go a long way....Patience...i will...

'Ta'

Just A Post

Heya to all da ppl out der...not many to be seen arnd dese days...

Well no particular reason to blog actually...jus dat i hav been playin diz tournament IBS (indian basketball society) n hav reached da semi-finalz...yea its not like a big deal coz der r only 4 teams n we played against da 3 of dem n won 2 outta 3....now is da main 2 matches semiz n da finalz dat is if we win da semiz...

I got jan man to watch our game today...hope u didnt get bored gurl, thinkin bout wht an anti-sportz person u r :P i loue u no... ;)

Oh after da game we did go fer da funfair wich waz pretty borin though we did meet a few frds and teachers....

After dat me n jan headed fer lamcy to eat and we had lasagne (plz correct ma spellin if i m rong:P) n den went home...oh before we head home jan did tell me bout her cuzin in CHIKAGO (dats how she prounounced it) LMAO....

Dats it fer da day....

Bday Picz

Da great birthday gurl....:D

Frm behind melissa, aakanksha, sapphire and me...
Me and saphie wid ma poochidoo... :) loue overflowin...
Me and aakanksha....Ma super loue...she smiled specially fer me...
Aah me wid da 'ABU DHABI SHEIKHA'...*salaamofy in respect to da sheikha* long live da sheikha...lolz...

Yea i no quite late but i din get time before...so yaha...

Laterz...

Cute Little Creatures

Yes today was a pretty long day....started as early as 6ish...well 5 days of da week start almost dat early but today was ethnic day...so had to do all jhol of sari n makeup n crap... :P yea i did miss my bus wich was not a very surprisin thing....but den i reached coll by 9 20(2nd lecture) after droppin me bua...made a grand entry in class wid sari :P
Da day was lotsa fun....quite many picz, dancin, did ramp walkin da whole class wich had diz contest (not gettin into details), complimentin each other n goin crazie...

We left coll by like 1 45 ish coz me, aak n saph were gonna go to saph's house n chnge n den go fer sheesha n meet da jan man since she came back frm blore today.....YAYZ MY LOUE IS BACK!!! :D but guess wht her flite got delayed n we finally didnt get to meet her....but me, saph, aak n sarah (joined in later) did go fer sheesha newaz...

Den i had to head fer work...BLUGH!!!! london dairy promotion...it is da shittiest thing i cud hav ever agreed to do...today da table set-up waz a bitch, samples werent der, no cups n i had to giv ice-cream?!, rong permission paper n da worst lamcy doesnt allow u to keep ur fone wid u.. :( so i had to b away frm my fone fer like 3 n half hours.... :O

So far iwas jus summarisin da day...now cumz da actual post :P wile promotin today i realized how adorable sum kids can get....

KID 1 - he n his mum came to taste ice cream n hes waitin der like an innocent thing till i fill a spoon n giv it to him..wen i did giv he didnt take it but came fwrd n i fed him. :) dat feelin waz soo nice to feed a kid a spoon of ice cream...

KID 2 - did not taste da ice-cream i waz givin but had diz other cone...n asks me aunty i wan diz one..i go like okay den u buy dat one...aunty can i eat diz now....i m like no u cant....aunty can i pay n den it...i m like yea den u can....aunty can i hold da cone in my hand n not keep it in da trolley...i m like no it will melt...u put it in da trolley...*walks off* :D (dat was da best kid:P)

KID 3 - a not so small gurl was standin n talkin to me tellin me how she doesnt eat ice creams nemore...coz she's afraid of gettin cavities...n how her bro already has a cavity..n so on...before goin she happily bids me bye...

Others include feedin 2 more kids....who so cutely ate n another kid a gurl wantin to buy a chocolate flavored ice cream n still pointin at a calfornia raisins tin of london dairy...:P

Yea i finally got home tired after a long day but i really wanted to post bout dese cute lil things...

P.S - Jan is back to dubai....
P.P.S - bonus - shes no more in bumblefuckhland shj but now in deira!!?!! teehee :D

Ok khallas....

Which One Would U Pick?

Heya der....!

I hav so many things in ma mind wich i wana rite bout n also upload a few of my chotu works wich are a result of boredom n lostgiri in class durin lecutures..welll but i dun find da time bcozz der r like so many things goin on right now in coll n stuf..its jus ahhh...

Newaz today wile i waz sittin fer my 1st two lectures i recalled a question wich i had got in one of da tests i took recently...

Question: Pick one of the followin if u were given a power....
Options - 1. ability to read minds.
2. ability to be invisible.
3. ability to fly.
4. ability to shape-shift.

Fer me i had picked the first one coz fer da kind of person i am, i m usually most thingy wid frd and issues or things wid them....so it wud b so kewl to no wht xactly each of my frd had in his or her mind....hmmm...n besides dat omgg der r so many other things wich wud b so awesum if i cud read minds but i m not listin all..i m very tired today...walked fer like more dan an hour today non-stop....aaahhh came....

Newaz tats it fer now...Ciao....

So Whose The Enemy?

So Whose The Enemy?

I have blamed my luck,
I have blamed the time,
I have blamed the people,
And i have blamed my life...

Well, whose the senstive brat?
Whose the one who seeks attention?
Whose the one who wants to be pampered?
And whose the one who can't let go of things?

Why? then... i still cry!!!
Why? then... i still complain!!!
Why? then... i still whine!!!
Why? then... i still am the best enemy of my own!!!

I guess i know everythin and yet i don't want to realize...

So whoze the enemy again??? LOLZZZ!!!

The Commencement

Forgive me blog fer putting in a late bday post...

Hmm 31st of march was the commencement of cuckud's last teen year...damn....
Da bday wishes started frm 11 45 p.m da prev night itself...apparently ma frd melissa waz sleepy n din wana wait till 12 so she wished me at 11 45... :P well she sent a mesg arnd 12 newaz...hahaha....

Next day i woke up all happy n fresh...oyi heyloo it waz my bday :) i had a lunch treat planned at mini chinese by arnd 2ish or 3ish...well sarah reached at 1 30...i duno how she gt dat time coz i dun remember tellin her dat time...ok der were sarah, 2 sameers :P, nauseen bajie, rashid, siyab, mohit, sana, jyoti, manisha, neelam and omgg myself.. :P we had a grand lunch at da place and omgg i luv da food at dat place....
Nauseen gave me diz cutee white tshirt wid pink ritin on it...sameer gave me diz yellow adidas t shirt wich is jus wow...manisha gave me diz cute pink bracelet wich says cuckud:)...neelam gave me diz silver coin fer gud luck...oh n siyab n mohit got me black forest cake..yummm

Den i headed to saph's place wer she waz wrappin my gift so she wudnt leme in her room at 1st n den she got ready n off we went to pick up melissa frm aud...da trip to pick her up waz longgg n omggg coz i cudnt get enuf of takin rong turns n roads...hahaha...sorry mel to make u wait so long....after dat da 3 of us headed to aakanksha's place....
First i had diz gifts openin session wer mel gave me diz hot hot halter top...saph n aak gave me diz huge pine cig box wich had a straightner (since i hav diz fad fer straight hair) and omgg a big white doggie wid 2 black spots...one on his eye n one on his stomach...his name is poochidoo... :D with dat i got da kewlest yellow card made by aak n saph agn...whieeeeee :D

After dat we had dinner (pizza frm pizza hut) wich waz omgg i luv pizza...den we headed fer a smokes session in a balcony on da 1st floor...der we played diz stupid truth only game...though it waz funnn...Later wen we got back to aak's place we had diz cake eating session....ohh we even had lotsa picz n videos...teehee dey r all so cute... ;) next on agenda was watchin the exorcism of emily rose...accordin to da three of dem it is oh sucha scary movie (all of dem had watched it before)...well i m still waitin fer da scary part.... :P

Oh boy was i xhausted by da end of da movie...i hit da sack by like 4 ish...saph slept like fer 10 minz before we had to b up fer coll....yea we had coll da next day....mel n aak were da only ones who didnt sleep da whole nite....damn it was sucha awesome dayy....luv u guys fer everythin u did fer me.... =>

P.S - Happy 19th birthday to me....
P.P.S - Jan i missed u moreeee dan nethin u biatch....like really....loue u whore, muahhh :D
P.P.P.S - picz in next post since diz is hugeee already...not a new thing but whtever....

End...!

Serious Crisis

Oh u dun need to worry dat freak der she goes agn wid one of her whinin sessions...diz waz da reason given to me by my coach recently wen he didnt send us fer a basketball game fer a tournament...damnit...i dunno whts his problem in life really...
So i m kinda realising dat i m only wastin my sports talent in Mahe n fer Mahe wich is sucha shame bcozzz i cannot stand losin all da time....like heylooo...as it is i hav soo much of ego stuffed in me...imagine losin all da time... :O

But the other day i waz surprised coz i didnt giv a typical xpected reaction of meenal on da not goin fer da match issue...i was jus tooo pissed n broke my pact wid self of not smokin till 1st may...newaz dat waz jus one day n i m back wid da pact (my birthday is an xception of course!!:)) but da next day wen i went fer a throwball game n i got to witness da other bball games happenin...boy dat day i really felt bad n upset...so it did hit me da next day...

Oh infact past 2 days i hav been feelin really calm n gud fer no reason agn...like recently i had my self personality test analysed by my prof. n shes like sucha smart dude..it waz soo much fun talkin to her bout it...my analysis said dat i portray sumthin wich i in actual am not n dat wud b coz i hav lotsa frds to pamper me...(ok jan u told me sumthin similar in blore already) but other things came out were i seek attention (trueee) and i alwayz wana b popular...so dats y...but my qualities dat were portrayed by da test wer all gud n strong...so i jus need to strive to hav a stronger character nd think more clearly...need to bring my mood swings to more of a constant pace...

So cuckud finally workin kickass to get a hold n get a life while everythin lasts fer me...yea like i din no dat i waz supposed to do dat....sure i did....but its jus dat right now i m actually doin it :)

Lukin fwrd to see all ya ppl after chotu long time....since we recently met.... :P

TaTa...!!!