Kill Me Bitch, Kill Me Slow...

Sitting alone randomly,
with a cigarette in the mouth,
Take a slow drag,
and breathe it back out.

Inhale the damn thing with a sweet smile,
gather the smoke and slowly let it pile.

Tell me how it feels?
seems like all the troubles healed.

But do you realise what it does to me?
I wish you could peak and have a see.

Have you felt packed in a room full of smoke?
you want to escape but you have no hope.

Kill Me Bitch, Kill Me Slow...
but might as well do it in one go.

Like stabbing knife one lung at a time,
f*** all the respiration in a line.

Give me in like for a debt,
I am screwed, which you don't get.

How about inhaling again?
but without a smile...
How about letting your thoughts?
create a new and better file...

Try to realise that it is wrong,
stop over-estimating that i am strong.

Quit the damn drags,
please! let me breathe...
do me a favour...???
delay the wear of the 'ulitimate wreath'

Or...

KILL ME BITCH, KILL ME SLOW...
But might as well do it in one go...!!!

Recollections

Hmm..i waz sittin and tweezin my upper lip wen i started thinkin...not dat my mind doesnt think on a normal basis but yea sumthin in specific fer a change...

Well i m suppsoed to b goin to watch da sports day of my skool tomm...n i cant tell u how sad i m...
i kinda realised how i wont b runnin on dat same track of dat same stadium tomm..!!
i realised i will b watchin da whole thing but i wont b oh so nervous n my heart poundin jus before da whistle...
how i wont b one of da so many ppl who keep fingers crossed to hear da end results of da sports day champs n da march past winners...
how i wont b counting how many certificates i got or comparin medals wid da other chicks...

So yea dats a few of da million thoughts dat flashed thru my head bout sports day...besides dat i cant believe how much i hav been missin skool past few days...prolly da whole realisation wich i failed to realise wen i left skool is cumin crashin down rite now??!!! Its really sad man...da whole innocence of bein skool kids, tuitions, skool uniform ( believe me i pretty much get frustrated at times in da mornin wen i hav to decide wat to wear to coll everyday!!), 'recess' - how after those 4 long borin periods we got to hog fer like merely 20 minz..., da strict attendin of class wer bunkin waz so not easy, ASSEMBLIES....gosh how can i ferget dem...atleast i prayed fer dat reason one of da few things in da mornin..., crazy lil skool kid indulgences, aaahhhh.......

I feel like a freggin old woman now.....! Also in abt 2 mnths time i will start livin my last teen year...n wht den...HAW I M NO MORE A TEEN!!!!? no i wudnt wana hear dat....

Cumon time u goin too fast...slow down bitch....!!!!

P.S - not to ferget i started coll like a few mnths back n time has raced so fast dat i m almost gonna finish 1st sem....Brutal reality of now....xamz...fer wich i m supposed to work my ass but i aint doin dat....Damn....GOD DUDE bless me...!

End....!

The Dunce Cap

Here as i am sitting in class,
One random chick among the mass.

Half way through my first sem,
Moving towards the feel of an unwanted gem.

Why do my high spirits don't work?
Why don't they flow and perk?

Ignorance, loner soul and extreme sensitivity,
They seem to work wonders!!!?
And my way piles up with minor blunders...

The EGO receives a hard slap,
CuCkUd don't like the dunce cap...
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Yaha rote diz during a lecture of communication studies...y wud i rite diz? well i was feelin bad and stupid since i aint really happy wid my internal marks...newaz...laterzz...

End...!