This week has been the shit!
Okay, so I am out of practice to write long posts, giving details of everything that happened but I shall try.
Sunday was super tiring since a friend and I were up the whole of morning (post midnight, Saturday). It was filled with planning for another friend whose star birthday fell on Thursday. Evening was filled with shopping for the same.
Wednesday started around noon where I had to take my sister to pick up lunch coupons for a lunch treat which happened today (Friday), followed by dropping her back, leaving to shop for one more thing for friend, and driving to Sharjah. Upon arrival, Lohri was celebrated, yummy Pav Bhaji was eaten and gift wrapping session was started. Lastly, a treasure hunt was planned since there were 21 gifts to celebrate the 21st birthday :).
Thursday started early at around 8:30 a.m. since the birthday friend was supposed to be kept out of her house. Day out with friend included; driving to Media City, our much loved beach, Dubai Mall, Lamcy Plaza to meet another friend, Karama to pick up another friend, driving back to the birthday friend's house in Sharjah, causing delay with miserable pretension of falling ill, and finally reaching friend's house.
A superb party happened after that - surprise, cake-cutting, treasure hunt, and yummy food and cake eating. All this, in quite a chaotic form.
Post party was slow and entertaining with lot of talking and discussion about all kinds of lies told, drinking, having children, etc.
Then, I died in a happy exhaustion! It has been a while since such content sleep visited me.
Friday started early too with the Karama friend, driving back to Dubai. Driving on Sharjah roads with no traffic is not so bad :P. We reached home to pick up my sister and go for the lunch treat at Food World. Sister's friends were quite late except two. However, that kind of helped to create an appetite for the lunch buffet. Again, decent food was enjoyed. Towards the end, this yummy cake, baked by sis' friend's mum closed the afternoon. Once again, I slept nicely at an odd time though.
Much appreciated highlights; extra cute and super happy friend and proud and happy sister.
I like!
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Duvidha!
That by the way, means trouble.
I realized, not today though, that random happiness does not last for too long. Yeah, so I decided to mention it today. Well, the deal is that there is too much negativity around and the big daddy of the same negativity is actually one's own mind, at least for me.
The problem is that this random happiness is very fragile because obviously, it is based on nothing. Hence, it is easy for any negative shit to shake it. However, it can also be the fact that, one maybe excessively bored of being frustrated, depressed, etc. and therefore, decides to push all the junk away. That is not so as to say that one is running away from problems but just trying to be normal while they still can't be dealt with. But, as mentioned earlier, this ruminative and acquired euphoria is very weak and practically any random external stimulus, beating the randomness of the above, can act as a cue.
Now, all of that, makes me arrive at a different tangent but related to the above. It somehow, makes me think of this concept that we were taught in Industrial Psychology. I forgot the details of course, but the point was that if one does not dislike something does not necessarily mean that he/she likes it and vice versa. There is this neutral spot in between. How about I attribute the neutral spot to my random mood and the two extremes, dislike and like to negative emotions and positive emotions respectively. Thus,(coming back to the tangent in concern) my problem is that, I know the exact five Ws and a H of my bad and controversial situations but I still can't help the negativity sometimes. I mean it's like this bird's view covering almost the whole area of 'something not right' but the bird is, metaphorically of course, blind! Actually more like helpless!
And that just makes it worse because I still give myself pep talks, discuss my problems with family and friends, and brood over the situation in question.
Right, so I just feel like a hypocrite now. That and very confused of course.
On that note, Goodnight!
I realized, not today though, that random happiness does not last for too long. Yeah, so I decided to mention it today. Well, the deal is that there is too much negativity around and the big daddy of the same negativity is actually one's own mind, at least for me.
The problem is that this random happiness is very fragile because obviously, it is based on nothing. Hence, it is easy for any negative shit to shake it. However, it can also be the fact that, one maybe excessively bored of being frustrated, depressed, etc. and therefore, decides to push all the junk away. That is not so as to say that one is running away from problems but just trying to be normal while they still can't be dealt with. But, as mentioned earlier, this ruminative and acquired euphoria is very weak and practically any random external stimulus, beating the randomness of the above, can act as a cue.
Now, all of that, makes me arrive at a different tangent but related to the above. It somehow, makes me think of this concept that we were taught in Industrial Psychology. I forgot the details of course, but the point was that if one does not dislike something does not necessarily mean that he/she likes it and vice versa. There is this neutral spot in between. How about I attribute the neutral spot to my random mood and the two extremes, dislike and like to negative emotions and positive emotions respectively. Thus,(coming back to the tangent in concern) my problem is that, I know the exact five Ws and a H of my bad and controversial situations but I still can't help the negativity sometimes. I mean it's like this bird's view covering almost the whole area of 'something not right' but the bird is, metaphorically of course, blind! Actually more like helpless!
And that just makes it worse because I still give myself pep talks, discuss my problems with family and friends, and brood over the situation in question.
Right, so I just feel like a hypocrite now. That and very confused of course.
On that note, Goodnight!
Sunday, January 03, 2010
I looked for the sinful grey in white,
But the latter was loud. Blinding eye.
The sound knocked the memory door,
And the echo gave me the smile.
The silence was sweet, and
that's exactly when I met you again.
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Situational and Specific.
But the latter was loud. Blinding eye.
The sound knocked the memory door,
And the echo gave me the smile.
The silence was sweet, and
that's exactly when I met you again.
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Situational and Specific.
Saturday, January 02, 2010
Happy New Year
The fanatical grey is conversing. Aggressive and Intimidating. The pawns are setting the mood for back-up.
The scene was almost perfect in the afternoon and it called for chai and pakodas. However, even if all these resources were available in the afternoon, the fact that this is Dubai would have ruined it. Somehow, the place doesn't go with the rain, chai, and the pakodas. So just like the scene called, the chai and the pakodas called Bombay or Bangalore or any one of those small random places visited recently. Anyway, the almost perfect scene was still more than welcome because like all normal human beings, during the time of recession, something is better than nothing.
On a smaller and more random note, the feeling of writing on the first day of the year 2010 feels good. Also, when I was much younger I was informed about this particular deal; whatever you do on new years is what you will be doing throughout the rest of that year. In that case, my list is the following:
- Receiving payment (Rich Bitch :D)
- Randomly happy mood
- Eating Chicken Tikkas
- Drinking and handling myself decently (I am sure we can have exceptions)
- Being surrounded with love from all the people who mean the world to me.
So, I shall also dedicate this post to them people who mean the world.
Happy New Year! :)
The scene was almost perfect in the afternoon and it called for chai and pakodas. However, even if all these resources were available in the afternoon, the fact that this is Dubai would have ruined it. Somehow, the place doesn't go with the rain, chai, and the pakodas. So just like the scene called, the chai and the pakodas called Bombay or Bangalore or any one of those small random places visited recently. Anyway, the almost perfect scene was still more than welcome because like all normal human beings, during the time of recession, something is better than nothing.
On a smaller and more random note, the feeling of writing on the first day of the year 2010 feels good. Also, when I was much younger I was informed about this particular deal; whatever you do on new years is what you will be doing throughout the rest of that year. In that case, my list is the following:
- Receiving payment (Rich Bitch :D)
- Randomly happy mood
- Eating Chicken Tikkas
- Drinking and handling myself decently (I am sure we can have exceptions)
- Being surrounded with love from all the people who mean the world to me.
So, I shall also dedicate this post to them people who mean the world.
Happy New Year! :)
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Random Check
I had my first random police check today. It happened in Al Quoz when my sister and me were driving to Dubai Driving Center. It felt quite unusual to get stopped by a cop. They don't usually stop girls.
Anyway, he asked for my license and car registration. I had both that too absolutely valid. However, I had this uneasy feeling for a second. Also, I couldn't help thinking about all the times when I drove without a license and expired car registration. Phew!
Moral of the story: Always carry valid car proofs while driving. Especially in Al Quoz :P
Anyway, he asked for my license and car registration. I had both that too absolutely valid. However, I had this uneasy feeling for a second. Also, I couldn't help thinking about all the times when I drove without a license and expired car registration. Phew!
Moral of the story: Always carry valid car proofs while driving. Especially in Al Quoz :P
Sunday, November 01, 2009
Petty Joys of Life
After two whole days of sitting at home and hoping to work out a fun plan with friends, I went out alone today.
The deal was to go catch the sunset at the private beach in Jumeirah 2. At 5:17 p.m. I started my car to go to the beach. It almost felt like a race because Dubai traffic picks up after 5 p.m. and since, winter is soon approaching, the sun sets around 5:30 p.m. With each meter that my car covered, the sun moved an inch downwards. There were quite a few hard brakes. I felt restless and my hand smelt of onion which I had chopped for dinner last night. I couldn't help looking through the gaps of the various buildings to ensure that the sun is still there. It almost felt like a game of hide and seek (I miss playing it).
At 5:42 p.m. I stopped my car at the spot where I usually park. Old days with friends drowned me. Technically, I was dry but I felt drenched. As I switched off the engine and opened the door, this amazingly nice-feeling wind welcomed me. There was nothing exceptional about this gust of wind except its timing to thwack me. It felt like a close friend's hug. Legs out, I looked longingly at the sky but alas! the big ball of orange had gone to sleep (quite a few have or I have put them to). A freaky pathan driving a Mitsubishi pick-up waved at me as he left (Chotu Tsunami memories, peace disruption). Anyway, what was left was faded light orange sitting on top of a grey sheet. Although, the ambiance was still bright.
I locked the car and started walking away from the direction of the already set sun. I felt like this cool kid - no balance on mobile, massive DJ headphones, basketball jersey, comfortable 3/4ths, oshos and a lot of dreams yet to be fulfilled while I walked away to nowhere. Suddenly, everything had just slowed down contrary to the school and college life that whooshed away so quickly. The orange kept fading and black started taking over the gray.
As I retreated my path to the car, I stood before the latter for a bit, admiring. This subtle smile came to my lips. I unlocked the car and dusted my oshos outside.
It was 6:22 p.m. when I started my car and left.
The deal was to go catch the sunset at the private beach in Jumeirah 2. At 5:17 p.m. I started my car to go to the beach. It almost felt like a race because Dubai traffic picks up after 5 p.m. and since, winter is soon approaching, the sun sets around 5:30 p.m. With each meter that my car covered, the sun moved an inch downwards. There were quite a few hard brakes. I felt restless and my hand smelt of onion which I had chopped for dinner last night. I couldn't help looking through the gaps of the various buildings to ensure that the sun is still there. It almost felt like a game of hide and seek (I miss playing it).
At 5:42 p.m. I stopped my car at the spot where I usually park. Old days with friends drowned me. Technically, I was dry but I felt drenched. As I switched off the engine and opened the door, this amazingly nice-feeling wind welcomed me. There was nothing exceptional about this gust of wind except its timing to thwack me. It felt like a close friend's hug. Legs out, I looked longingly at the sky but alas! the big ball of orange had gone to sleep (quite a few have or I have put them to). A freaky pathan driving a Mitsubishi pick-up waved at me as he left (Chotu Tsunami memories, peace disruption). Anyway, what was left was faded light orange sitting on top of a grey sheet. Although, the ambiance was still bright.
I locked the car and started walking away from the direction of the already set sun. I felt like this cool kid - no balance on mobile, massive DJ headphones, basketball jersey, comfortable 3/4ths, oshos and a lot of dreams yet to be fulfilled while I walked away to nowhere. Suddenly, everything had just slowed down contrary to the school and college life that whooshed away so quickly. The orange kept fading and black started taking over the gray.
As I retreated my path to the car, I stood before the latter for a bit, admiring. This subtle smile came to my lips. I unlocked the car and dusted my oshos outside.
It was 6:22 p.m. when I started my car and left.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Conversation
mella says:
meeenaaallll
Meenal says:
what u doin
mella says:
nothing
getting bored
Meenal says:
dont all u a e ppl do that
my brother dear is going today
so i gotta take him shopping
brb
mella says:
kk
Meenal says:
back
mella says:
;D
Meenal says:
empty became
mella says:
empty? pooop ?
Meenal says:
yeah
mella says:
niceee
im bored bored boredddd
Meenal says:
so am i
im kinda sick with myself
mella says:
whyy
Meenal says:
because everywhere i go or see i find something or someone right in my face pointing out my worthlessness
mella says:
dont think like that.......
Meenal says:
mel its annoying man
i have thought of so many things for myself and i m doing nothing to getstarted
besides wasting time of course
mella says:
me too man...we are all in the same boat....
Meenal says:
and the brownie of this bitch is that i constantly brood over it and fuck my happiness
its traumatizing man
mella says:
i know....
Meenal says:
iwant it all to stop like go away
mella says:
so dont brood over it...
just think of it as a bad dream that will just go
if u feel like shit...u shud just write it out...and then ul feel lighter
Meenal says:
yeah except i just cant write
like my creative instincts along with all my uselessness have gone down the drain
i m sitting on my blog only
i dont know what to write
maybe i will just copy paste this conversation
easy way out
briliant
mella says:
yeah thats how it is...you're doing great
....................................................................
Pathetic? Tell me about it.
meeenaaallll
Meenal says:
what u doin
mella says:
nothing
getting bored
Meenal says:
dont all u a e ppl do that
my brother dear is going today
so i gotta take him shopping
brb
mella says:
kk
Meenal says:
back
mella says:
;D
Meenal says:
empty became
mella says:
empty? pooop ?
Meenal says:
yeah
mella says:
niceee
im bored bored boredddd
Meenal says:
so am i
im kinda sick with myself
mella says:
whyy
Meenal says:
because everywhere i go or see i find something or someone right in my face pointing out my worthlessness
mella says:
dont think like that.......
Meenal says:
mel its annoying man
i have thought of so many things for myself and i m doing nothing to getstarted
besides wasting time of course
mella says:
me too man...we are all in the same boat....
Meenal says:
and the brownie of this bitch is that i constantly brood over it and fuck my happiness
its traumatizing man
mella says:
i know....
Meenal says:
iwant it all to stop like go away
mella says:
so dont brood over it...
just think of it as a bad dream that will just go
if u feel like shit...u shud just write it out...and then ul feel lighter
Meenal says:
yeah except i just cant write
like my creative instincts along with all my uselessness have gone down the drain
i m sitting on my blog only
i dont know what to write
maybe i will just copy paste this conversation
easy way out
briliant
mella says:
yeah thats how it is...you're doing great
....................................................................
Pathetic? Tell me about it.
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