Someday U'll Lose

Do u fear sumthin...? can sumthin or sumone really freak da shit outta u?
For me it can....it really can...
Da anxiety, da feelin to get outta der right now, da shiver,da tears, da frustration, da helplessness..i can go on n on bout it....

On a normal basis i m supposed to b one of those 'g' type of tomboy gurls but diz fear totally hurts ma ego...

How does one get over a fear man? yea ok dun gimme da usual crappy line...'Face It'.. i hav had it like frm almost all my friends who know about this fear...but yea suppose dat way doesnt help den wht???

Another thing is there r 2 kinda ppl....
1) who can hide their fear n pretend.
2) who get hysterical, nervous, wild, etc n find it very difficult to control it.

I m da latter kind...

Imagine wen u miss so many things bcoz of da fear factor present der, wich otherwise u wud so totally luv doin..hav u tried thinkin wht kinda feelin wud dat b?

I have....so many times...

Another worst thing...Wen Sumone Laughs or Mocks Bout Ur Fear??!!! nd probably da unoffcial manner to think ur dum..."omg...cumon wht does it really do to u??", "omgg how cum dat scares u...luk at me"!!! (YA RITE SUCKER!!!!)For me i personally feel dose r da most shittiest ppl on diz earth...like hello u wud never no how it feels until n unless u actually cum to da point wer u totally feel like peein in ur pants..especially for those kinds who luckily r lucky enuf not to b scared to face nethin or do nethin but yet are totally gud fer nudin slobs....!DAMN...!
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Fear Vs Faith

Its here...thats it...i can't bear it,
slices me apart,
drowning me in the fear pit...

The devoted flow of tears,
techno mix of the heartbeat,
makes the hand reach for ears...

Thats it..Please can u cease?
i just cannot take it,
my breath demands back its ease...

Haha gurl u wish i waz the angel,
to complete ur sparkle,
but i am generous giving dread and dull...

Immense pleasure to see you suffer,
ur pain makes me smile,
i pity u for ur puny buffer...

"This cannot go on forever,
i close my mind with a wait,
for the day which seems like never..."

A seemingly fought one-sided struggle,
where my faith is in peril,
the self-esteem faces a juggle...

Anticipation is getting the better of me,
a wait to kick the fear's butt,
realisation to give of how panic may be...

Because one day the faith will be superior,
irregardless of the time it takes,
one day the dread will get a peer...

And yet...

i close my mind with a wait,
counting,waiting and hoping...!

P.S - No mention or revealing bout da fear factor in da comments plzz....lolz...
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