So like most of u guys no i started coll arnd 3 months back....yea it seemed so gud da fact dat i m now in coll yayzzz!!! :S
not really... i remember postin about my 1st day of coll bein completely enthusiactic bout it...but alas...dat does not xsist nemore....COLLEGE totally annoys me...!!!
I am a little more than 'totally frustrated' rite now....
Damn i was suppose to post bout diz totally kewl time me n aakanksha had at dat small carnival kind of thingi in riqqa but i dun hav time to rite....(i will post it soon though...it waz one heck of a kewl day..) but yea rite then how am i ritin diz post...? well bcoz i want to whineee....i cant help it....like a word vomit dats all i do...keep pukin whines n cribs on all da ppl whom i usually talk wid a lot...well its all bout dealin wid little issues here n der everyone keeps sayin...nd i no i aint da only one goin thru dese but stilll i dunno why i cant seem to deal wid dem....orr why i cant seem to keep my mouth shut n be normal n think life aint so tuf..yea so i wana whine bout it...yeaaa soo whtt....?!!?
Well i no wht xactly has ticked me offf soooo bloody much..its jus one thing....but all da other small random things r jus add-ons to make an already helpless situation worse...yeah more dan hating dat one thing i actually hate da fact dat i can not really do much to change it....whyyy? damnit...!!
Its like i m suddenly bein pushed to nowhere as soon as possible fer sum damn reason wich i fail to realise...nd xactly y my mind fails to cooperate wid me to move dat quickly...i m slow...i m waiitin...(for wht...? search me!) which i no is not goin to do nethin but land me into shit....nd yet i m slow! i only seem to b gettin really disappointed wid everythin...anger is like rite der..even if u mite try sayin hie fer sum ppl it pisses me off. its like i wana fite....seems like i m lukin fer reasons to yell at sumone. Its like i need a huge whack! on da head like wake up woman whts rong wid uuu??? y are u sucha typical emotional fool...why do u have to think so much and worry bout every stupid business arnd u....y not like jus breathe rite? but no....cuckud has lost it!!!
Da only options i wish i cud practice now...(none of which r possible really.)
1) hibernate totally n not wake up fer i guess eternity....
2) run away from da entire world and jus be alone...
3) ok if i cant really run away den atleast be in solitude fer somthin at sum place like a beach...(diz is weird...i hav suddenly started approvin of beaches...i dunno if ppl remember but i alwayz used to say how beaches gimme da weird vibes...)
4) beat da shit outta sumthin or jus go wild wid nethin....nethin dat wud help...
And surely....i totally seem to be cryin fer no reason...like y? prolly coz i hate bein a cry babie n da fact dat i m so sensitive makes me shed tears...or is it my anger which is like so bad nd so intense dat da fumes condense back into da water form n jus pour? or is it jus dat i m plain frustrated n hav lost it....?
nevermind....let me give u people a break n yet agn try another unsuccessful attempts of gettin a life....!!!
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meenuuuuuu... jus breathe.. its ok.. everything is fine..
Though I have no clue as to wht is bothering u but u seem to be worrying a lot.. dun give things or issues more importance dan dey deserve..
If sumthing seems to hurt u,is giving u pain thn discard it rather than being with it & sinking in da feeling dat u're going thru..its not easy but u gotta try to overcome it sweety..
Life is amazing, each day is new & positive, everything in dis world is possible .. All dis can turn out to be da other way round, It all depends on how u're looking at it..
dun wry meenu.. we luv uuu n r thr 4 u 24/7... so c u got such a gud reason to smile.. den wht u waiting 4?? flash da colgate teeth wideeeeeee.. hehe.. hope u feelin better now...
love uuuuuu...
muahhhhz!
Sometimes it is difficult to talk to people about issues, cause you feel like you're burdenning them. Sweety, a few things I do when I'm in one of those Pathetic phases ;
1.) Giant pillow, rope, and / or a bat. Tie the pillow to a pole and smack the hell outta it with the bat. Or if you dont have a rod / pole, go to you room and smack the hell outta the pillow.
2.) Talk relaxing showers, and pamper yourself to the core. Think about your issues as much as you want, BUT LEAVE THEM THERE WHERE THEY BELONG, In the water..to be washed / drained away. Feed off the positive energy of the water. Stay in the shower as long as you want, till you feel like it's time to get out
3.)The beach Idea was good. Take a walk on the beach with a frnd (cause its not safe walking there alone ESPECIALLY if your a girl). You guys dont have to talk about anything, just relax and breathe in the fresh air.
Different techniques work for diff. people. Use whatever you're comfortable with.
You seem to be stressed out and taxed more than anything else. Things will get better, It usually does, rite?
tc,mwah
Just dropping by to wish you a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!
Cheers!
Gautam
geez...poor babe...i know im late but i hope u still read this comment anyway....im shure ull be feeling better now...i hate those periods and youre not alone...but its hard for everyone...it gets soo frustrating and scary...and i just want to rip someones head of or cry till my eyes fall out...i dont know how u get thru those times...i guess you just get tired of feeling hopeless and crying and you finally close your eyes..u fall asleep and then its a new day...hope ur okay! mwah
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