Its Still The Same...

I can sense i am feeling high,
ah,thats so much better than being low,
just look at me,i am so very cool yo.

I can hear music probing in my ears,
ah,thats so much better than the lame politcs,
just look at me,i m so very battered by those pricks.

I can see my cell phone sitting silently,
ah,thats so much better than constant talks,
just look at me,i am so very calm as they bear no fruit in walks.

I can think my way to nothing at all,
ah,thats so much better than the loner thought,
just look at me,i am so very bored to sort.

I can sense...
I can hear...
I can see...
I can think...!!!?

Ok STOP...

Sense again...Hear again...See again...Think again...!!!?

Its Still The Same...:S

LOLZ...what is still the same...?
Well, i don't know...

But...!
Its Still The Same...:S:S:S...

Flashbacks

Heyloo fellas...its been 3 days since jan left n it already feels like 3 mnths..no xaggeration...but den shes i dunno disappeared wer coz she hasnt given ne form of proof of her existence in india,mumbai...till now..so yea...:(
On other issues i hav recently been cleanin my drawers n tryin to act responsible only bcoz i hav absolutely nudin else to do...goin out n freakin out wid frds doesnt seem appealin dese days n today also i cancelled one of my plans coz i so din feel like gettin out of da house...but den classmates plannin to cum to me house tomm lets c i sure wish all of dem make it...its basically coz we all wana see n cuddle wid muntu's kids who r now like 10mnths...so omggg...dey must hav bcummm even cuterrrr...

Hmm bout da title well like i said i hav been cleanin out lotsa mess n at da same time i hav found so many lil lil things of my past...awww..i miss my childhood n dat freggin innocence man....not dat i m freggin devil now but i no i lack DAT innocence...:S!! so like i waz sayin...hmm ders like i found da fish scale pendant n chain moni gav me in 10th i gues wich i m wearin rite now...:) n aother silver chain wid a solitaire pendant wich aman had given me...dat also reminds me he waz da 1st guy i started talkin to lolz... den i found so many greetin cards...sarah i found a seasons greetins frm u given in 6th std...:D den bout 2 frm vijaita...remember her fellas??!! n one more frm mariam mohit....hmm i wonder wers she now!! n god noes how tall she mus hav bcumm...her height surely givs me all da creepy creeps..:P... on da other hand i found so many cute jewellary stuff wich were mine only but been tastin dirt since wen...so yaha..n wow sum of dem r really funkeh!!! so wow...i found new stuff to wear...

I even found skittles n halls menthol pack wrappers in one of me bags...insportz....:(!!! i remember we all used to eat stuff n candies like dese in da buss...me,naus n da kids...haww...i even remember da last day wen nauseen bajie got lollypop candies:p fer all of uss...actually fer da kids but i got one too n i made sure i picked YELLOW :D:D....n omg bout insportz i cud go on n on n on...da brownies n aero frm nauseen..yay luvv u fer dat day...coz i had got chocolate treat 1st thin in da mornin..arnd 7 30 :))) n da last day doin n pictures n ipod sharin n lame jokes...r u tryin to b funny coz i m not laughin...lolz i remember me n aaron...n pissin da shit outta u wid ali n aaron agn....aaaahhhh...damn i m gettin blah..stop n switch...damn i even found pictures old ones...n one of da paper wer i scribbled da name of me crush all over...lolz stupid but i guess it waz durin a free period n its recent...in 12th itself so yea..:P ok i can b lame at times...:$
aahh i cud go on n on...but den i guess i shud stop..but memories...so many of dem...pleasant ones,bad ones..

Damn dey r soo peculiar coz dey make u smile n at da same timee dey make u soo blahhh....:S
laterz....muah...

Have You?

Have you felt so sad dat u jus wana cry ur ass off?
Have you felt so incomplete just coz ur friend is flyin to a distant place?
Have you felt like being as strong as possible but dat jus one sentence "Ure so Welling up" makes u shed tears?
Have you felt so weird wer all is normal yet luks so alien?
Have you hogged ur fill n yet be blah at da same time?
Have you had a situation wer ur pathetic already n da songs on da fm dun help either?
Have you felt like tearin sum1's boardin pass to so many bits dat u cannot possibly join even if u wana havin all da pieces?
Have you felt like holding sum1's hand soo tite dat the person cant go till she finally misses da flite?
Have you felt the feeling of having the pathetic bus journey ever?
Have you felt like xpressin sumthin n end up ritin utter confused words?
Have you felt the feeling of bidding away a close frd gud-bye?

I have,today on da 22nd of april wen my sweetheart left to bombay...ok so she will hav a life there but rite now i jus needed to spill coz i wan jan back already n it must hav jus been a few minutes since her flite took off.
Hav a safe flite hun...god bless...
I am gonna miss u so muj...muah...

Have you felt like ritin n ritin n ritin ur ass off but yet you hav to stop coz you dunno wat to say...?

I have....I HAVE...it sucks...
but den i still lappyy you so muj...
take care...:'(

Million Thoughts Per Second

Heylooo pplz..so like agn i havent blogged since few days...like damn its not dat my initiative of ritin is reducin naa...omgg noo i luv bloggin..lolz i guess only dat recently startin monday i hav been hangin out like everyday....so i thot i cud update together once my non-stop freakin out stops..well i aint got no planz tomm so yaha....

Startin monday 17th april - went wid aman,aaron,kummail,jan n jyoti,first to professionalz wer poor aman waz gettin his ass whooped by me...lolz ok aman u did manage to get a few flukes all gud dude..well i alwayz luv playin billiards so it waz great n whoopin asses is like my habit!?! nevermind den we headed to exit fer sheesha..damn i cant believe it dey actually asked us fer ids...? like helloo who wud fer sheesha...but thnkfully da manager waz gud enuf fellow n let us hubble bubble...had like an awesum time fulin arnd...wer aman kept losin in bluff(card game) n majority of da correct doubts were by da CUCKUD!!;) went to lamcy also wer all of us were broke so we were jus bitchin bout random fair gays n losers on earth.newaz it waz pretty nice freakin out wid u fellas....

Tuesday 18th april - Aaaahhhh went to play bball wid sarah,vivian n hadi...well i finally gotta use my new 'SEXEH NIKE BBALL' ... damn it felt soo gud playin...well after bout 45minz of play we got kicked out by da security guard coz we were playin on da ghurair terrace court wich waz so not meant fer non-residents...well even da 45 mins play waz like 'PURE HEAVEN'..hmm got back home early dat day n gav a 'NAI-NAI' to me bball alongwith me..(ok so ya i m obssessed wid my omg bball...ne issues??!!?? shooo keep it to urself...)

Wednesday 19th april - damn da beginnin of my evenin waz like argh coz i had to wait fer like half an hour fer da freggin bus....but never mind coz da others dats jan,sarah,nauseen baji;) n dayaan were also quite late n more or less reached at da same time as me...we went to lamcy btw...damn it waz pretty gud meetin nauseen n dayaan after ages...(badey log naus:D) n like sarah really wanted to meet dem so u finally did ya sarah....:) aww...i dunno der waz sumthin in da air dat day coz Nauseen cudnt stop crackin pjs...she waz all high wid her 'yahaa' n 'wuhoo' n 'blahh' lolz....sarah god female she cudnt stopp laughin fer nuts...n dayaan had ordered sum chinese thingi wich after almost more dan half way thru realised hes done da same mistake agn...of i guess orderin itt? n jannn ok she waz supposed to b da reason fer da amazin evenin...lappzz...(i think diz sounds more ' cool':P) ok so we got dropped by dayaan in riqqa(me,naus n jan) n sarah to her place....in riqqa we waited till asfara came...great meetin her too after like ages....yayzz...well she dropped me n jan to my place finally...greattttt day....

Thursday/today 20th april - ok jan's mentioned it like in da most omg manner possible so i advise u to read her post regardin today...as concerned my personal views bout today...it waz like MAJOR OMGGGG FUNN....like literally i kinda cooked more dan usuall....omg meenal u cooked...haha!!! n jan n sana cudnt stop discussin da dead chicken's pussy!,ribs n eyuh god noes wat all...(ok ya so i m more frank jan lolz..unlike private parts) sarah da usuall organised n focussed one bout her cookin...hehe....amaziiiiiiiiinnnnnnn pasta hun!!!!! besides dat der waz major feelin n doin like all over da place....like omg...meetin muntu after soo longgg felt great...:) like literally one of da best classmates freakin out day...COOLNESS PLUS!

Friday 21st april - so i assume i m gonna b sittin at home today(past 12) take a break or my mum mite screw my case fer real now...n diz is like as huge post as jan's lolz cud b more...hehe...

P.S - Great week..though i m supposed to b tryin to get a job n decide my coll n crap...so yah...damn u whore me!!:P but rite now i m feelin like TOTALLY GREAT ritin all diz...surprisingly we didnt click pictures...omg...crap...

P.S agn - jan sorry bout da random bye while goin home like i hav already mentioned in da comment...but still lapppyyy major..muah....
cheers fellaz...

Brutality Of Time...

Ok dun take diz as sumthin i feel coz i m not able to decide my coll...lolz dat is not coz of dat...jus ponderin over all da chng i m gonna go thru after bein outta skooll...so jus felt like ritin...hav funn...


There was a time when all was calm,
a time when happiness was all around...

There was a time when all the paths were laid,
the paths where even the plain walks paid...

There was a time when goals were explicit,
goals by which the flare of triumph was lit...

There was a time which was pure beyond terms,
the purity which gave a feel devoid of germs...

I can't believe the 'brutality of time'..!!
I CAN'T BELIEVE THE "BRUTALITY OF TIME"..!!

Now is a time where everything is hurly-burly,
a time where happiness deviates itself surely...

Now is a time where all the paths are hideous, the paths where effortless moves become tedious...

Now is a time where aspirations are only a hope,
aspirations which are dangling by a feeble rope...

Now is a time which is flawed beyond words,
the flawness which completely feels absurd...

I can't believe the 'brutality of time'..!!
I CAN'T BELIEVE THE "BRUTALITY OF TIME"..!!

Unstable Future Boat?!?

Heylooo ppl...its pretty surprisinn dat meenal didnt update her blog since ages...well yaa i m supposed to b da jobless one at home naa...ok so i hav been pretty upset past few dayss...nahh not really jus bored n random issues here n der...well like i get bothered very easily so yeaa...newayz so i waz supposed to post bout our 12th april...here goes...

Fer starters all of dem stabbed xcept me n jan who landed at jo's house fer stayin... but in da evenin we all (monisa,macky,aafreen,sana) n us went to lamcy fer hoggin...hehe fishin fer enuf cash waz fun...we all were short ... haha...newaz...it felt gud...pizza hut meal fer 4 n der waz sum letter xchanginn...(dun bother class doins)...so den me n jo n jan left fer her house... we went to da lodge in da nite....

well 3 babez ready to party.....ya rite.....!!!!:P

It seems our names were on da guest list so nudin cud go rong n we were gona hav a helluva timee... but we were stopped at da gate n asked fer ids...shucks...fucked!!! now wat...? ok so we were strugglin wid ids n vaastaa(reference) fer 2 hours....outside lodge...so freakin embarrisin...well jan managed to find a female's id n got in fer sumtime...(ok jan dun act paranoid like me .... i didnt mind at all n i waznt all dat pissed jus kinda u no coz da nite got wasted..lappy;)) but den me n jo were asked to enter iilegally n we both didnt quite like da idea..so we thot its better to go back.

Back at jo's place waz great...we didnt sleep da whole nite...we cooked koka noodles n hogged...mushroom flavour...yumm....obviously i hogged da most...:D we talked,felt,went all crazy,read letters,bitched:P a lil actually discussed a couple of thinz is better n yaha had quite a lot of fun...oh we finally did get xhausted at 7 in da mornin n slept....KIMMY is da cutest thing ever...jo's doggie(female) man....it waz fun playin arnd wid her...oh we went in her pool also fer sumtime...oh godd both jan n jo were tryin to teach me how to float haha...ok i did a lil but i suck at it so yeaa...hehe....newaz den we had a very late lunch at 5 30 n me n jan headed back......so nite waz ruined but so not ruined in da end....yayzzz...

Ok so after i got back home i went to trade centre wid ma mum to check out da colls...yaya watever hi fi fucked up shit...i realised AUD n AUS (supposedly to hav da kewlest bball teams) r way outta ma league....n den i liked UOWD but man dat too is like wohh...big shit...so unless i really work n help me dad i will hav to ferget bout dat...i dunno wat to think bout LSE n HERIOT WATT(suggestionz welcumed) n lastly MAHE...well if i m takin indian degree y not go to india n get it at a better coll??? so goin to india now becumz one of my option....HAW!!! i dun wana .... like hellooo i hav been in dubai all my life... wtf??? diz has made me even more upset....:'( newaz gail i wan more dan detailed details of mahe especially da bball scope der...find out fer me gurlllll.......thnxxx..

P.S - my latest life update...gail i posted...yayzz..:) but den my status rite now - fucked both sides :P n way to confused....so hah....
P.S agn - me learnin drivin rite now has also been delayed so yeaa....:'(
laterz...take care peepz....

Radioactive Isotopes

Ok so i havent ever put up 2 posts in a day....welll today i m...lolz...few days back i had diz weird dream...bout "RADIOACTIVE ISOTOPES"..dun remember xactly but pretty muj of it...goes like diz...

I m in a science lab wich is at da top floor of my bldg..i dunno how coz i stay on da top floor n above dat is da terrace...so i m assumin it turned into a science lab:P n hear two docs talkin bout sumthin...frm wat i remember it waz sumthin to harm me...i freak out n start runnin away...i only hav my cell n i m quite upset bout leavin back so many thinz at home..i run n board a ferry,small boat,abra..(dese r actually der opposite my house n i often travel by dem) der i find my sister n i m tellin her bout dese docz...shes like yea radioactive isotopes gonna destroy da world...its already started...its all over da news...damn...we were still watin in da ferry till more ppl filled in...all my other family members all reached n we all left...nows da weird part...wer do we shift to..?!!! Nauseen's old riqqa house...:P:P n der i called her n waz tellin her of da whole thing n dat we r now in her house ..dat too i waz standin in her room..lukin outside da window..i waz tellin her da atmosphere had bcum dense wid sum white smoke kinda thing n der were white smoke balls almost tennis ball size passin over da bldgin:S i think she said no traces over here as yet...damn den me n my sister r suddenly in da same room talkin bout da atmosphere and we had to go down to get sumthin done wich i seriously wish i cud remember...coz it keeps naggin me..newaz we went down n i remember da entrance of da bldgin waz different..n der waz a guard down there...well da weather had bcum unusually warm n waz gonna keep gettin warmer.....coz of sum radioactive isotopes in air...it seems by da end of it,it had bcum more of a global thing rather dan da docz planin to kill me..??!!!

damn... dats all i remember or i think i woke up after dat or sumthin....but shit i wish i cud see a lil more of wat wud happen..n my dreams usually tend to mix n bcum all confused...wer da ppl,places n topic in concern end up chngin all da time...but den diz one waz freakky..brrrr...lolz n i still remember n can visualize it...i do get so many weird dreams...n so far i still remember quite a few of mine...:S
laterz,muah...

Celebrity Me

Heylooo...so yesterday we had our very last n very final:P arabic xam...ok here we all were kinda tensed coz none of us were bothered to study n we werent sure how well we were gonna b helped fer it...but thnkfully it went ok..n hopefully all of us r passinn..

After da xam i played a lil bit of basketball wid my 10th std mates...aah..it waz fun...newaz dey had to go coz they had class or sumthin...so we all 12thies now were stayin back till 1 30...so we had full 2 n half hours to our disposal:P ok we had to get our shirts signed n stuff...i did da honours of startin by signin sarah's shirt..:) ok so she thot da mesg waz small i added so muj to it rote it all da way down till her....:P den der waz no stoppin signin n signin is all we did...

gosh our uniforms luked so muj better...

welll dats meee...hehe...too bad my back side waz more filled...hehe...cant show dat....

Da kiddies i mean da juniors cudnt stop starin...sum were like omg kewl stuff u guys luk great...while sum were like hav u ppl lost it...'stupid fools'(dats by me to dem:P) well even da teachers were starin n shit...oh but we did take autographs frm quite a few teachers..sum of dem were way to happy to rite a word of luck n sum of dem had random issues...yaya watever..!!!wat do u xpect man! it waaz greatt funnn though...n seriously now wen i think of it der r so manyyyy things dat i m gonna misss bout skool:(

ok so y do i put 'celebrity me' coz like we had so many juniours wantin to sign our shirts fer us:P da attention,da farewells,da best wishes...hehehe i luved da attention....

On my way back home,our driver kinda banged into another car so we hadda wait fer da cops n stuff...well everythin got delayed...pfftt!!! veryyyy irritatin..get back der later...i hav dese few junior kids in my bus who wanted to sign my shirt... n dey were so freakin xcited bout da whole thing...haha....dey were literally like plzzzz can i sign ur shirt too?? haha so cute.!!! well da funnist part... dey even took my autograpgh if i can say dat... lolzzz....dat waz funny...like i m sum great celebrity!!!:D ok dey took emails too...a few of demm:P ok enuf...lolzz...

Ok now da delay kinda pissed da shit outta me coz i reached home by 4!! n i didnt get netime to sleep as i had to go out in da evenin...plus i hadnt slept da previous nite...damnnn i waz soo sleepy...not to ferget i waz so hungry in da bus but guess wat SARAH HUN'S BROWNIES TO DA RESCUE!!!!PHEW!!! she had given it to me in skool n like i alwayz save a lil quantity of my chocolates or watever(brownies in diz case) fer da end n yummm...dey were great..so i survived..hehe...great...day....!! like really...waz great fun!!!

P.S - i m legally nomore a skool kid :S
cheers fellas....

Wow

Ok so today waz like da most shittest day ever...well it all happened coz i did a petite mistake n posted 'Time Will Heal' on my blog...after dat i dun wana even mention wat all happened...but it waz da most shittiest moment of my life...fer those who missed it....GOD BLESS YOUR SOUL...n fer those who were a part of it...
i m really sorry i posted it up.. n thnx fer bein der...like atleast diz whole nonsense had one gud thing....i realised how muj ppl care fer me...atleast a few of themm...thnx fellas...i luvvv u so mujjj...though da day has caused me immense pain...but like seriously diz day waz like a majorrr lesson to me...world is filled wid assholes wid da xception of a few shameful ppl who r gud...BEWARE of da assholes n NEVER let dem make an ASSHOLE outtta u..moreover...whine less,think more n take ur own godamn decisions in life...diz is may sound utter crap tomm to me coz rite now my blahness noes no bounds..moreover i m not sure wat ppl gonna interpret outta diz post n i may sound like a complete selfish biyatch(not sure of da spellin:S) but plzzz its only wat i felt today n i dun mean to offend or hurt ne1 by diz...god bless....

P.S - i appreciate if u wudnt mention or bring up nethin bout yest in da comments...thnx fellas...i whined enuf...

CTK - 495

Heyaa ppl...oh da title is da model number of my organ(piano - organ:P) well today after ages i felt like playin it....all diz time it waz tastin dirt...sorry organ:P..aaaah...heaven...very nice feeelin...well i waz takin classes in it b4...i reached sumwer wer i started learnin da beginnin chords...n den i had to go to india...so i stopped but den wen i returned...it didnt seem appealin to me...so i didnt resume my classes.too bad...i wish i had...:( i felt so gud today after playin da organ...well da irony of my situation is dat i m left handed...so its difficult to play da rite side wid rite hand...i usually play dat wid left...:P well i waz in practice to play it wid rite hand but all gone now...though i do end up playin quite a few songs on it...but den iwish i cud compose sumthin on it....so don't hav dat kinda mind....mebbe i shud resume classes..?!! hmm i will think bout it...oh btw i waz practicin fur elise today on it...wid chords...waz learnin it frm da song bank...mannn diz song is like awesum....like wow...had fun..newaz i m out...muahhh....

March 30th Picz

Ok so dese picz take time coz da size is hugeee....sorry ppl u get to see very limited picz coz i cant upload all..so yea... but den all of dem r so adorablee....*dances*

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ok so i will post more...rite now i gtg coz i gotta b up by 5 30 to study ARABIC...blast u mann....newaz hav fun ppl...cheers.muah...