Serious Crisis

Oh u dun need to worry dat freak der she goes agn wid one of her whinin sessions...diz waz da reason given to me by my coach recently wen he didnt send us fer a basketball game fer a tournament...damnit...i dunno whts his problem in life really...
So i m kinda realising dat i m only wastin my sports talent in Mahe n fer Mahe wich is sucha shame bcozzz i cannot stand losin all da time....like heylooo...as it is i hav soo much of ego stuffed in me...imagine losin all da time... :O

But the other day i waz surprised coz i didnt giv a typical xpected reaction of meenal on da not goin fer da match issue...i was jus tooo pissed n broke my pact wid self of not smokin till 1st may...newaz dat waz jus one day n i m back wid da pact (my birthday is an xception of course!!:)) but da next day wen i went fer a throwball game n i got to witness da other bball games happenin...boy dat day i really felt bad n upset...so it did hit me da next day...

Oh infact past 2 days i hav been feelin really calm n gud fer no reason agn...like recently i had my self personality test analysed by my prof. n shes like sucha smart dude..it waz soo much fun talkin to her bout it...my analysis said dat i portray sumthin wich i in actual am not n dat wud b coz i hav lotsa frds to pamper me...(ok jan u told me sumthin similar in blore already) but other things came out were i seek attention (trueee) and i alwayz wana b popular...so dats y...but my qualities dat were portrayed by da test wer all gud n strong...so i jus need to strive to hav a stronger character nd think more clearly...need to bring my mood swings to more of a constant pace...

So cuckud finally workin kickass to get a hold n get a life while everythin lasts fer me...yea like i din no dat i waz supposed to do dat....sure i did....but its jus dat right now i m actually doin it :)

Lukin fwrd to see all ya ppl after chotu long time....since we recently met.... :P

TaTa...!!!

New Identity

Yesterday i had gone fer shisha wid saph n aakanksha...dey made me wait fer 52 minutes..though i only left my house fer dat place widout tellin dem...:P:P so its okay...damn its close to a month since i went fer shisha...it felt SO GUD.... :)

Ahem! dats not wht i waz posting bout actually...i had a question...to how many of u i ever seemed to look like an iranian?
Well yesterday i had two people who asked me dat question: Are You Iranian?

Situation 1 - i waz in a random grocery next to da shisha place buyin chocolates to kill time...while payin...

Da guy at da counter: are u irani?
Me: *looks up confused, not sure if heard right* huh?
Da guy at da counter: repeats question.
Me: noo!!??!! *gives an enquiring look*
Da guy at da counter: oh i thought u r irani!

Situation 2 - i waz walkin home after we got done wid shisha as usual lost n wid music in ears..

A random lady walkin on da road: *mumbles* to get attention..xcuze me?
Me: *taking off one ear plug* yea?
A random lady walkin on da road: are u irani?
Me: *shakes head, confused again* no i m not, y?
A random lady walkin on da road: oh..! *smiles* i thought u were irani...*still smilin n walks off*

I have had ppl askin me sumthin dat i m not before but i havent had 2 ppl askin me da same sumthin dat i m not dat too on da same day...lolzz...so it jus made me think 'y was i lukin so iranian dat day?' n i felt like puttin diz upto... :P

Newaz so tats bout it n now i m off to finish my i think 3 pendin assignments fer tomm...oh freak i hav a test too... :(

*Time Out*

Late Night & Unplanned

Its bloody 3:03 in da mornin....

I jus had a cup of vanilla ice-cream...well not dat i usually eat ice-cream so late on a normal basis or not dat i really felt diz urge of eatin ice-cream but i still had it...coz i new it was kept der in da ice of my fridge....chocolates, ice-creams, bbal games they all usually help me to calm down n feel gud....yeaha dey do....

I hav been pretty restless (in mind) n weird past few days....like diz weekend all i did waz sleep like wohh...besides goin fer nauseen's barbeque bday party at jumeirah beach park...dat waz a gud one...lolz nauseen bajie no more a teen...aah...omggg...lolzz....rite now i aint sleepy....n i also no da fact dat i will almost b floored in coll tomm.....!!!?

I dun like my dsl connecion...like initially it wudnt work coz der waz an error wid da cable line in my bldgin n now after i got back frm me trip its 10 times better but right now its slowing down every 20 minz....well i m tolerating it....whtever random....

Right so past few days i havent been talkin to ppl much....n today i dunno i waz so bored dat i went on jan's blog n started readin her archives frm da scratch.....well all diz wile i didnt realise but she does hav sum really neat posts....damn cute....i read till april 2006 n stopped coz i thot i hav to try sleepin soon but guess wht?!! i m bloggin here now...:P oh jan's blog did bring back tones of flashes, thoughts - memories....like i didnt no dat wud happen but yea whtever....

I m not sure wht xactly i m tryin to say thru diz post...it alwayz happens...i m clear wen i m talkin to myself bout it n da minute i sit to rite it or say it to sumone....whoosh!!!! i m all confused...!!! is dat weird or is DAT weird?

Well i waz thinkin bout da way i m alwayz pampered by my close frds..like wow da way dey put up wid me all da time....not to ferget der hav been changes in da ways of pamperin n lotsa related issues but i guess dats fer da better...i dunno if i make sense here but like right now at diz very moment i wish i cud b sumone in place of one of my frds n xperience wht it is like to hear, pamper or console or whtever meenal.....weird huh!!!?

Ok diz waz supposed to b a short one but i guess i m yet to master da art of keepin it short..however now i suddenly feel like mentioning a few ppl who mean a lot to me in life right now....Jan, Nauseen, Aakanksha, Saph.....
Ahaaaaaannnn.....so *cuckud turns red after typin diz* *unsure vibes overflowin*...
Well i still miss skoool too n not to ferget all my classmates....hmmmm.....

So i dun care bout ritin things like dese...coz fer me my instincts jus asked me to type n sum ppl do no i do whtever dey say....well i m not sure if i did proper justification to my thoughts right now but i think i need to stop n try gettin sum sleep...

Its 4:06 a.m. rite now....