Monday, November 26, 2007

Next Sunday

Hmmm i just wana keep bloggin cos i cant do it very often once i go back to ma paradise... :P Da usual was thinkin wile walkin to get ma medical report (i got injection :P) n back n remembered dat next sunday at dis time i will be in air arabia goin back...arghh :( dats so pissin off.....cuckud no like...

Oh bt yst was lotta fun...it was red clan's day out cos today was aak's bday...so wish her habbie bday....

Last week's gud samaritan - da dude who gave me parkin in da lot opp ma house...da gud thing he did, made a small kid who was wid him to go tell da other car dude who was tryin to steal ma parkin to back off... :D

I cant believe da amount of times i hav noodles in a week....argh...oh one more thing....dubai is kewl cos ppl jus tend to b nice to me here...i mean ma usual meanies also....lol..i like...

Kai i think i m done blabberin fer now....tadaa...

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Torture Session

Sometime bck i was doin ma under arms n i use an epilator....fuck it hurts man...i mean arms n legs always seem ok like feel nudin at all but bloody underarms....*OUCH* i wish dey cud make such an epilator wich wudnt hurt so much....or rather dey can develop dis kinda anesthetic wich wont make it hurt...unless ur a very self-inflicting person den it wud b kai i suppose...ok ppl may think i hav lost it talkin bout how it hurts wen u epilate underarms....heylo not ma fault...dats all i can possibly do wile gettin bored at home man....

ok let me make da post a lil more worthwile...after i was done beautifyin maself...i made dese home nachos wich tasted soo gud....here is how u can make urs....very simple....
1. buy a pack of amigo tortilla chips.
2. Spread chips in a glass plate dependin how many fit.
3. Spread pasta sauce on da chips wid a knife.
4. Place a few (cut from previous) pieces of finely chopped capsicum n tomato.
5. Put grated Kraft Cheddar cheese on da chips.
6. Place da plate in a microwave oven
7. Heat da chips fer 20 - 25 secs.
8. Remove the plate n attack.

Tips: You can make it spicy by adding finely chopped green chillies.
You can use spread cheese also instead of da cheddar cheese.

Great now dat i hav mentioned sumthin more worthwile n ended up practicin how to rite instructions learnt in ma 3rd sem in communicative english, i shall end da post here..
Toodles...

Thursday, November 15, 2007

No Particular Reason

Elo der...after da massive bloggin of 8 posts wht more can i possibly blog abt n dat also soo soon...welll i duno....i jus had dis urge of puttin up sumthin cos i m feelin habbiee..no not dat i hav stopped whinin...hey it has defintely reduced ok...its jus dat i feel so sorted in ma head...fer a chnge!! yes i no!!!

Its like i usually cum to ma bloggie wen i hav to puke sum sort of emotions outta ma system n dey r usually blah stuff so fer a chnge i m jus habbie....

Da return to dubai..(i no most ppl consider it a shitty place), family, home food, drivin, beach, shisha, CHEESE LITE :D , mahe, old classmates, ma bitches...damn so many things to luk fwrd to....one more da feelin of eperiencin da replay of old times is jus awesum....*sniff sniff*

*takes a pizza break...chomp chomp...slurpp...* :P

Aah dat felt gud....bloody pizza also in blore is so desi, tastes horibble...its almost like a cliche man...wen i was leavin i blogged abt all da things i m gonna miss n now dat i m back i m rejoicin abt da same thins....so wht shut up man..i m habbie..so let me b....

Its kinda kewl how i can do dis...say i m bloggin fer no particular reason n mention so many n rite suchaa long post....teehee...*pats proudly*

Kai i think i rote enuf fer now....*movie time*...toodles... :)

P.S - i dedicate dis post.... :)

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Octoer 29th 2007

I have always hated being dependant for anything and on anyone. However, even though i trymy best i do find myself bein so bloody dependant on quite a few people...For a normal person i think it would be okay to find such unintended dependancy but den in my case my ego always gets the better of me....For eg, when i m high...thats one time when i always cling to few of the people i drink wid even though i say i wont when i m sobre..Being ma close frds i always think it wouldnt matter... they may say that they dont wana take care of me always like this but then recently it makes me very paranoid....Here i think is it true with each of them? nd in case it isnt is because its not always that they have to take care of me like diz!

Another thing i realised here is the value of money. Till u hav it u can do wht u want n be how u want. Once u start facing a tite budget den u no...u hav to compromise so many things. Affording a small cadbury worth jus 5 rs. can make me think twice before i buy it.

It scares me sumtime about how moody i can be..i myself sumtimes cant figure out wht random thing when will cause a tick in ma head to think of all da possible nonsense i can think of..this makes me think whether there are ne other people like this or is it just me..at times i wonder with the amount of things i jus keep worryin bout or rather get worked up bout may drive me crazie one day...I sumtimes imagine how wud it be to be a psycho...not dat i want to turn into one but fer a moment i want to feel that feeling of bein a psycho...

One last thing...one major bad on that day which was completely unintended and was bigger than ne of ma bads so far seems to be rubbing in on ma face constantly...one fear tht was associated wid it got sorted out and the outcome was positive (thank god) and then a peptalk which i do only once in a while with myself to lift ma spirits agn...things seem so much better after that but den i still feel dat in sum demented way it jus rubs in right on ma face...and dat too not always by me...perhaps unintentionally by ma frds..i m sure they mean my good but den how long can a person take that bitch of rubbing in...so its jus sad...

Oops one more thot triggered...y do i think the amount i think...i mean i no i hav asked diz qs before like several times but then i never really found an answer fer it...i no i m not only the kind like diz but it jus makes me wonder....
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(kai one of ma posts i had ritten at home n thot i wud publish it later n as usual i didnt find time in blore so after i end dis...i hav proudly updated ma blog wid whtever i rote n didnt put up yet...lot of crap i no...bt it feels gud cos ma blog never got dis lucky to hav so many updates at one go...newas...toodles fer a wile...little wile...)

My Distant Land

Travel away to a distant land,
softly, quietly, keeping an unknown brand.

For here there is a lot of chaos,
you have to be under a big boss.

For here there are a lot of facades,
hidden and waiting various forms of hazards.

For here you will not find yourself,
massive crowds and you are one elf.

For here you just cannot breathe,
squished and strangled despite your deed.

Travel away to a distant land,
softly, quietly, keeping an unknown brand.

Breathe in the calm and feel the solitude.

Then there is just a smile and a trance.

(Written on OctoBer 29 2007, i think)

Your Ma Hypocrite

Like a bitch you pierce,

Bloody Hypocrite!!!

You only take my pain away,
watching each drop of red,
go drip drip down.

One mind says save it to save me.
One mind says smile at your own doom.

(Written August 31 2007, i think)

Bitch Of My Life

Secondary is what i am,
I feel,
Or maybe i am a bad guesser.

I am told what i mean to people,
Quite a few times,
But maybe i am too paranoid.

Wait is it just same bad luck,
Keeps lurking,
Or maybe i might be correct.

Unlike before there seems to be no one there,
Just a feeling,
Or maybe there is just a silhouette left.

Victimization is another bitch of mine,
Too many bitches around me eh?
Or maybe bad luck again!

A lot is going on about right now,
One after the other,
Something i want and loathe together.

After so long, the head triggered,
For a few minutes,
A few lines of venting away.

At this very moment, I demand!
Ma music, not trivial crap!
Ma basketball, not hurt ego!
A reassurance, not fickle hopes!
A lot of solitude..With a CLEAR MIND!

Or maybe i do need more that a silhouette,
Just about right now,
But the solitude has a superior hand..!


(Written September 10 2007, i think)

Bit By Bit

Slowly crawling in a rapid race,
what will happen of you?

Need a little more on the pace,
If you need to a little of that ace.

Clip Clip tears a part of each limb,
with each met failure.

And yet you trotter on and on,
with what is left of you.

A faint hope that someday,
you will be known.
you will be there.
right at the top.

Right now needs calm,
right now needs false hope,
false because so far hope gives,
Nothing but Disappointment..

(Written August 31 2007)

Hopes Cause A Tick

A little more than efforts,
washed down in the drain.

A little less than assistance,
flew to touch the sky.

The intensity of hurt being small,
but its the every small that makes it big!

The more she tries,
the more she loses,
so much in a demented manner,
makes her laugh at her own losing self.

Though behind that laugh is the hidden tear,
but she has learnt to smile as she walks..in the mass...
Learnt to 'Smile' As She Walks In The Mass!!

(Written August 31 2007)

Its A Storm Always

A weird feel,
an undoubtful heal..
tears not meant to fall,
why would i hear wen there's no call...?

Call not heard,
makes things absurd.
bullshit makes me smile,
i have come a mile.
meet the loner soul,
sinkin deep in the hole.

The harder i tend to try,
the more it makes me cry.
whenever i end up being nice,
more i uncover people like ice.
you would think they are there-solid,
shams worthy of absolutely no bid.

Journey meant to a distant land,
boulevard paved with troubles grand.
not that it is an impossible take,
though shingles on the way cause a wait.
and sometime slithers a demotivating vigor,
that aids fiasco in the head to trigger.

At times life feels like a fantasy,
at times its nothing less than venom,
however, how should i take it and move?

Well that i am yet to reckon!

(Written i think Jan 9 2007)

Old Stuff - New Post

I had ritten quite a few times in blore...bt since i usually didnt hav much time on da net over der...i thot i cud post dese now....hmm....dubai has been gud and after dat day's colg surprise i went to da beach wid mel, aak, saph, ashray and adi...nice ppl da new names....had gud fun n den spent da nite at aak's...mum's almost 70% better....*phew* ok here goes.... wid da old stuff....

Dis 1st one is a poem i had ritten wen i was frustrated cos i liked dis guy n cudnt get over him for soo longgg...even after he started datin dis chick....da poem's fer da chick - a very gud frd of mine....sorry hun i rote dis once upon a time n never blogged since its bitchy....bt i m sure u wud understand if u read dis now...one of ma million immature thingys....peace....!

Hatred Beyod Words

I was the one who introduced you to him,
it was through me that you met him,
and yet you advanced to the brim.

Without a word...
Without a warning...

You just took him away from me...

The whole world told me about it,
how i wish from u i heard the whole bit,
yes you finally told it to me,
but it was too late, let it be...

You just took him away from me...

Now i see them holding hands,
now i feel the love between them,
now she knows him better than i do...

Does she know how is that feel?
something that takes so long to heal...

Like a hundred balloons bursting together,
like a hundred fire crackers lighting the sky,
like a hundred knives stabbing an already painful wound...

Why...no really why would she do that to me???

I even told her.."i still like him..."

Stop...

I don't want to hate her...she has been a friend...

And yet you just took him away from me...

I can't explain the hatred for my bad luck...
i can't explain the feel it gives...

i can't explain myself to get over him...

Do i call it insanity, do i call it a sin?

But its just that.....

I am still crazy about him...

(written on June 17 2006 or July 23 2007, duno wich ones correkt :$)

Friday, November 09, 2007

Successful Surprises :D

Well well well guess whos bck....yaha...da cuckud....teehee...man feels so gud to b bck after 4 freggin months....well abt blore besides dat i m gettin an education of better value, everythin else sucks....da colg, toilets, pollution...blah blah....nudin can beat ma frds at mahe man....seriously...

Hmmm so since yst dat i hav cum bck....i wid saph 1st surprised aak ygoin to her house b4 she gets bck n we both hid in her cupboard....nah da cupboard is still strong n intact....:p so our dearest chikni cudnt believe dat we were back n her luk..hahha worth seein....it was so kewl...

Today me n saph went to colg....to surprise da rest....after seein n talkin to da profs. who most of dem btw are all pretty much da same felt really gud to see us back....den da grand entry in clas...1st to shubha mam wid a hug wile da class starts cheerin n howlin :D n den hugs to da whole class....omgggg it was like one of da best feelin ever.....our dearest mellu cried....hahaha.....so cute...bt too bad i missed it! bt newas i spent da rest f da day till bout 12 30 p.m. meetin, huggin, surprisin and tellin ppl bout me n blore....

Den da red clan went to one of deir domains - House of Shisha....omg no wht shisha feels like after 4 long mnths....aaah heaven....talks n fotos....n den we went back to academic city to drop off mel....den 3 of us left....saph went home n i went to ma other house...(aak's house :p) as usual....laughed so hard after ages man over sumthin so random....kewlnes bcame....n den cuckud came home....

Great start of vaccations wid 2 great days totally filled wid omggg so much....yayiiiiii....cant wait to go crasieee wile i m here.....luv alll u ppl yaar..!! Muahahaha.....

:D

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Just An Alarm

I always come to ma blog fer help wen i feel weird....nd diz way its like an alarm fer it to wake up...since i dun blog much i m sure it mus hav fallen into coma or sumthin...ok yea i m talkin crap....

Helllooo to all da ppl out der.....How do u do?

I duno wht xactly to rite....just a date...22nd october 2007.....

And...

Dat i hav a point to prove...so i shall jus wish all d best to maself fer ma xamz wich start tomm...i shall study hard n prosper.....correct...!

End...

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Irony of My Boom

A feeling deprived of acceptance by most,
Something not comprehended by many.

Tick - advancement - boom!

Decision did not seek,
Result created an unfortunate victim.

The obsession keeps getting better,
Bloody exsists a pun on it,
As helpless as an addict dancing to a force.

Revolt creates a SATAN...
Acceptance not even an option: the trigger is one sided...

Pleading for an aid,
Anything to pull it's wreath.

Insanity evoked just tears apart,
Self alone is the resort,
But self alone is the slave!

I cannot go on like this.

Anything...Just Anything...to relieve...!

Thursday, September 06, 2007

Welcome Back

Hmmm i can jus imagine my blog screamin that to me since i came back to rite on it after a lil more than a mnth...Oh n wile i checked da other blogs it seems every person in dubai is very bizi n doesnt hav time to blog orrr there nudin more left to rite bout....sheeesh...wat a disappointment!..

Ok so it has been more than a mnth since i shifted here...still cant accept the fact dat i m a blore chick now...arghh....well a lot has happnd since i moved here but nooo dun worry i wont rite all of it...i hav learnt to spare ppl a lil more often these days u no.

I m livin wid jan, nisha, nitya, farzu and stef in their flat...oh and saph also.so seven of us..but we usually hav a lot of other ppl spendin time at the house...most of the time wht i do is eat n sleep..most of ma money goes in eatin n travelling...thot ma dad wud get me a bike but dat he says has to wait...

Managin internship, coll n sportz was a bad bad thing...but today last day of work n after dat things will bcum a lottt better...oh a wasp kinda insect bit me on my left thigh jus above the knee wich waz sucha bad thing...i went to da doc n had to take a tetanus (hope i spelt dat rite), 2 diff tablets fer 3 days and a cream wich i still apply on the bite...it had bcum as big as a lemon but is much better now...

Today we all goin to mlore coz we are bored here..hpe dat turns out fun...besides all da happenin in blore i miss drivin in dubai, beaches, gud food (eat junk n chaat most of the time), chocolates (choice usually restricted to Dairy Milk) ma family and house, ma bball frds n playin wid them ( here i m in the mounts team but its nudin like wht playin bball used to be fer me there), sheesha and knowin all da roads and places there...

I m sure there is a lot more but i cant remember and cannot possibly type all dat...

Newaz i guess hav ritten enuf bout to fill in fer a post...shud update in another decade... :P
Till den fer ne1 who still, by mistake also turns up here, wich i sincerely doubt.....toodles and God Bless....

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Amazing Bus Journey

Right so ma prev post didnt say much...well frm da time i hav cum to mumbai damn i hav been pretty pissy here n there....it waz pretty borin da two days i stayed der n all i did waz watch tv, go to ma uncle's house n den get attacked by a few mosquitoes...i had many strokes of bad luck man...ma laptop mayb delayed so dats like shit...i thot i wud survive on ma mp3 but guess wah dat new piece of shit got spoilt on its own...sum internal part burnt or sumthin....so i hav sent it back to get it replaced....blast it!!!

Ok so ysterday afternoon i left fer blore at arnd 1 45.. 1st we had diz non a/c bus till andheri n boii thnks to mumbai traffic it took sum lil more dan an hour n i got all sweaty...n den da next bus waz a/c duh coz we had a/c bus booked n it waznt so bad da bus....da journey waz said to b fer 18 hours but da driver said it will take atleast 20 hours....*WTF???* well da evenin waz pretty ok..watched 2 movies wich dey showed apne and good boy bad boy... :P da nite waz da most shittiest thing ever....i jus started chumin ysterday n dat waz a bitch wile travellin in a bus...ma calves were actin funny in da nite so i cudnt sleep....ma left arm waz hurtin n i started thinkin wht if i suffer frm heart attack n die? :P? oh n also i had had a bottle of pepsi so i wanted to pee earlier dan i xpected i wud wan to after movin frm da dinner stop... well newaz coz of all dese stupid things i cudnt sleep evn though i waz so exhausted...n da rest of da bus waz sleeepin so peacefully wich made me feel even more worse...i cried like da whole nite in frustration n pityin ma poor self.... IT WAZ BAD!!! durin da entire journey der were like about a dozen short stops n 2 proper stops fer like dinner n breakfast today....hey n i can still feel a lil numbness in ma ass frm sittin fer so longgg....20 hours u no...yea der were breaks n stops but still trust me it waz bad...

Finally i reached today at 11 in da mornin n me n ma dad r stayin in diz shitty hotel wich has indian toilets widout flush...ARGH!!! newaz i came to da gang's flat to meet dem n find out wht da admission scene is like...welll seems like its gonna take longer dan i thot n will b a lil more complicated dan i hoped....but it will b a while till i no fer sure whts happenin...another wait fer me!! ok then!!!!

Newaz now dat i poured ma heart out here i think i will end it...too much of frustration in one post is not gud i no....

*End*

Monday, July 09, 2007

Aamchi Mumbai :P

Yaha fellaz i reached mumbai safely yesterday at arnd one in the mornin...damn...ma new house wer we jus recently shifted is pretty neat n spacious...now withhin next 2 days hopefully i shall leave mumbai n go to blore to try n get admission...damn yst in cab to ma house waz kinda weird...i started thinkin how things can change....damn...i usually cum here fer vaccations n now its gonna b like i will cum to dubai fer vaccations....shit....unless i dun get admission or sumthin...lolzz....dat wud b funny den... all da hype n da farewell n da miss us' n luv us' will go to waste...

Da weather is pretty eccky out here....got to witness da rains frm da cab itself n right now i waz so bored at home dat i jus got here to sit onl...i miss ma dxb pc... :( well diz thing is so kewl dat wile i waz so intensly typin ma fingers off in diz window fer ma blog dat ma pc restarted n thnks to da automatic savin sum of it waz still der...so i continued...

Newaz i cant think of much to rite bout n diz is not da kind of pc wich gives me da feel to blog...i shall return...till den whoever still reads diz...tata...n pray i survive ma massive mosquito attacks...:P

P.S - Habbie 100th post to ma most dearest bloggie...absolutely luv it... :P

Toodles...

Sunday, June 24, 2007

Fun Came

Hmm the blogging world has hushed down again....damn life is so bizi... :P

18th june: last xam n da end of second semester... me saph n aakanksha went to al nasr fer ice skating....dey both skate pretty ok...i used to but den lost touch n dat day again i kinda got da drift back...we clicked quite sum pictures n it waz lotta fun...

(me n saph wile skating.... :) )

Dey tried droppin me down but den finally dey didnt...oh but dey did harass me wid massive ice attacks.. after skatin we were fulin arnd in da park(lolz me chained...in da park...:P)

Den went to lamcy wer dese ppl had barf ka gola n i went to check out skates fer saph...next we headed home but da wait fer da bus waz a bitch...

21st june: saph treated us dat day fer her bday wich waz on 22nd june...(me mel n saph in da rec room...bored in da mornin...:P)

Early mornin we went to coll coz we all n matty were gonna make her cut cake...since matty cudnt cum later fer da treat... aak baked an awesum cake n it waz lotsa fun dirtyin saph's pretty face... :P den da four of us (me,aak,saph,mel n merw) took da karama bus n went to saph's place...(mel n saphie in da karama bus...)

She cooked pasta fer us wich she thot luked like white goo but i didnt think so n tasted wow at da same timee...i hogged da most :D ... next four of us minus merw went to wafi city encounter zone... we got diz 2 hours ka band wid wich we cud go in all da playin areas not da arcade games if i made sense...1st we saw 'da tomb' a horror house kinda thing wich waz not scary n we were laughin wen we came out....mel's screamin waz jus awesummm.. :) next we played in da crystal maze n our resultz said we were da top team of da day so far... after dat we sat in diz mini roller coaster sorta ride wich we cudnt get da enuf of...it waz so kewll went all upside down n sidewards n everythn... (dese were da blades we gav saphy...)

Next waz rollerblading wer mel didnt cum n da rest three of us went...da blades were stinky, half broken n so uncomfortable but we still had lotta fun...finally we took a cab n got down near aak's place...mel n saph went to aak's house n i went home frm wer i went to ajman....

21st (evenin) 22nd nd 23rd june: i met nauseen after soo long...dat is havin a stayover...it waz so kewl...goin crazie over random things, laughin like wohhh, eatin unda noodles, buyin n eatin junk in da nite and watchin movies....Fun Came - Kewlness Plus! :D

Today after cumin back i hav jus been sittin onl and den i waz sortin out ma folders...i waz readin a few old saved convos n omgg sum r so funny, sum so stupid n sum so freaky n summm jus so cute...newaz its still not decided wether i leave or stay...hopefully by monday i will no fer sure n final....

P.S - aak, saph, mel, naus n jan (miss ya biatch!!) i luv ya guys soo much... :$ yes pick on me now...fine... i m used to it...:P

end...!

Thursday, June 14, 2007

Boredom Can Make U Write

Heya its meenal reporting from the college library... i had my second last xam for the sem and it went fine...da shitty way in wich i prepared it went pretttyy gudd...yahaaa!! so i had to stay back coz i hav to talk to ma prof. bout transferin procedures n shit...

Damn i hav never seen ma coll so deserted... i mean i no we cum to study in a desert but den xam time is like u cant see ne1...DUH!!! coz dey r in da rooms ritin deir xamz..! oopz...dat waz a puke of boredom overdose...back to normal...ahem ahem!!

As i was sayin i waited outside ma prof.'s room fer half an hour since he was bizi talkin to 2 other ppl...n den finally he came outta his room...but LO! he had to go fer xam invigilation so he says u go to da library n i shal talk to u after i m done wid ma invigilation duty...right so i came to da library n omggg its never been so quiet...hardly 5-6 ppl sittin n worse is da other room wich has da pcs n da internet...wen i entered der were only 2 ppl sittin in da whole room n it waz so bloody quiet dat i cud clearly hear da cpus' goin 'whissssss'..i got diz sudden feelin like i waz trapped in a desert wid no escape...not a very gud feelin...well rite now a couple of more ppl came in n der is sum sort of talkin agn...but dat silence felt weird fer sum weird reason!!!

So i m stuck here till 4 30 wid only 2 cigs to keep me company and i think i m hungry so i will go n eat sumthin before i meet ma HOD...

Shucks its so bad to see wht boredom can do to sumone!!!

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

*Bangs Head*

Yes! i m back to whining again!! wtf naa...?

I hav xamz and i DO NOT feel like studyin...well i keep doin dat durin all ma xamz but diz time its a lil more dan normal not wantin to study...arghh..

I do not want to leave ma college and go to india...On one side ma folks say i hav no other choice and on da other side dey randomly say fine den u dun go but u help here n stay...decide already will ya??!!!

I really really wana play sum bball...dats like one of ma ultimate "habbie cumz" thingy...cant wait till i play....

I m very addicted to facebook even though half da things we do on it r so lame but guess wht i still accept all invites to try those things n i try dem also.

Going to da beach feeling is happenin a lil more dan too much..i used to say i get weird vibes frm da beach...omggg wer da world is headed to? :P

Der is a BABA Mithun movie playin on star gold rite now wich is annoyin even though i aint watchin da tv...

I waz so freggin touched today...professor, a couple of frds...i dun care call me a sentimental freak but *sniff sniff* came...

Every chotu thing gives me a sign n i get all OMGG!!! omg i suck!!(correkt no jan!?)

Ok i will spare u fer a while. Stop.