Serious Crisis

Oh u dun need to worry dat freak der she goes agn wid one of her whinin sessions...diz waz da reason given to me by my coach recently wen he didnt send us fer a basketball game fer a tournament...damnit...i dunno whts his problem in life really...
So i m kinda realising dat i m only wastin my sports talent in Mahe n fer Mahe wich is sucha shame bcozzz i cannot stand losin all da time....like heylooo...as it is i hav soo much of ego stuffed in me...imagine losin all da time... :O

But the other day i waz surprised coz i didnt giv a typical xpected reaction of meenal on da not goin fer da match issue...i was jus tooo pissed n broke my pact wid self of not smokin till 1st may...newaz dat waz jus one day n i m back wid da pact (my birthday is an xception of course!!:)) but da next day wen i went fer a throwball game n i got to witness da other bball games happenin...boy dat day i really felt bad n upset...so it did hit me da next day...

Oh infact past 2 days i hav been feelin really calm n gud fer no reason agn...like recently i had my self personality test analysed by my prof. n shes like sucha smart dude..it waz soo much fun talkin to her bout it...my analysis said dat i portray sumthin wich i in actual am not n dat wud b coz i hav lotsa frds to pamper me...(ok jan u told me sumthin similar in blore already) but other things came out were i seek attention (trueee) and i alwayz wana b popular...so dats y...but my qualities dat were portrayed by da test wer all gud n strong...so i jus need to strive to hav a stronger character nd think more clearly...need to bring my mood swings to more of a constant pace...

So cuckud finally workin kickass to get a hold n get a life while everythin lasts fer me...yea like i din no dat i waz supposed to do dat....sure i did....but its jus dat right now i m actually doin it :)

Lukin fwrd to see all ya ppl after chotu long time....since we recently met.... :P

TaTa...!!!

New Identity

Yesterday i had gone fer shisha wid saph n aakanksha...dey made me wait fer 52 minutes..though i only left my house fer dat place widout tellin dem...:P:P so its okay...damn its close to a month since i went fer shisha...it felt SO GUD.... :)

Ahem! dats not wht i waz posting bout actually...i had a question...to how many of u i ever seemed to look like an iranian?
Well yesterday i had two people who asked me dat question: Are You Iranian?

Situation 1 - i waz in a random grocery next to da shisha place buyin chocolates to kill time...while payin...

Da guy at da counter: are u irani?
Me: *looks up confused, not sure if heard right* huh?
Da guy at da counter: repeats question.
Me: noo!!??!! *gives an enquiring look*
Da guy at da counter: oh i thought u r irani!

Situation 2 - i waz walkin home after we got done wid shisha as usual lost n wid music in ears..

A random lady walkin on da road: *mumbles* to get attention..xcuze me?
Me: *taking off one ear plug* yea?
A random lady walkin on da road: are u irani?
Me: *shakes head, confused again* no i m not, y?
A random lady walkin on da road: oh..! *smiles* i thought u were irani...*still smilin n walks off*

I have had ppl askin me sumthin dat i m not before but i havent had 2 ppl askin me da same sumthin dat i m not dat too on da same day...lolzz...so it jus made me think 'y was i lukin so iranian dat day?' n i felt like puttin diz upto... :P

Newaz so tats bout it n now i m off to finish my i think 3 pendin assignments fer tomm...oh freak i hav a test too... :(

*Time Out*

Late Night & Unplanned

Its bloody 3:03 in da mornin....

I jus had a cup of vanilla ice-cream...well not dat i usually eat ice-cream so late on a normal basis or not dat i really felt diz urge of eatin ice-cream but i still had it...coz i new it was kept der in da ice of my fridge....chocolates, ice-creams, bbal games they all usually help me to calm down n feel gud....yeaha dey do....

I hav been pretty restless (in mind) n weird past few days....like diz weekend all i did waz sleep like wohh...besides goin fer nauseen's barbeque bday party at jumeirah beach park...dat waz a gud one...lolz nauseen bajie no more a teen...aah...omggg...lolzz....rite now i aint sleepy....n i also no da fact dat i will almost b floored in coll tomm.....!!!?

I dun like my dsl connecion...like initially it wudnt work coz der waz an error wid da cable line in my bldgin n now after i got back frm me trip its 10 times better but right now its slowing down every 20 minz....well i m tolerating it....whtever random....

Right so past few days i havent been talkin to ppl much....n today i dunno i waz so bored dat i went on jan's blog n started readin her archives frm da scratch.....well all diz wile i didnt realise but she does hav sum really neat posts....damn cute....i read till april 2006 n stopped coz i thot i hav to try sleepin soon but guess wht?!! i m bloggin here now...:P oh jan's blog did bring back tones of flashes, thoughts - memories....like i didnt no dat wud happen but yea whtever....

I m not sure wht xactly i m tryin to say thru diz post...it alwayz happens...i m clear wen i m talkin to myself bout it n da minute i sit to rite it or say it to sumone....whoosh!!!! i m all confused...!!! is dat weird or is DAT weird?

Well i waz thinkin bout da way i m alwayz pampered by my close frds..like wow da way dey put up wid me all da time....not to ferget der hav been changes in da ways of pamperin n lotsa related issues but i guess dats fer da better...i dunno if i make sense here but like right now at diz very moment i wish i cud b sumone in place of one of my frds n xperience wht it is like to hear, pamper or console or whtever meenal.....weird huh!!!?

Ok diz waz supposed to b a short one but i guess i m yet to master da art of keepin it short..however now i suddenly feel like mentioning a few ppl who mean a lot to me in life right now....Jan, Nauseen, Aakanksha, Saph.....
Ahaaaaaannnn.....so *cuckud turns red after typin diz* *unsure vibes overflowin*...
Well i still miss skoool too n not to ferget all my classmates....hmmmm.....

So i dun care bout ritin things like dese...coz fer me my instincts jus asked me to type n sum ppl do no i do whtever dey say....well i m not sure if i did proper justification to my thoughts right now but i think i need to stop n try gettin sum sleep...

Its 4:06 a.m. rite now....

Unknown Vibe

Ahaan so today da cuckud came back after a trip of 16 days to india...in short...i left dubai on 10th feb & reached on 11th feb...after 3 days on da 14th i went to blore.... der da whole gang knew i waz cumin down xcept jan...it worked wonders...jan man waz completely shocked...oh i made sure i waz a pain in da freggin ass to her...after all its my jan man....after months...dun i hav full rights to bug her....!!!!:D

Newaz blore waz like super cool....(except da mosquitoe attacks)it waz a change i really really wanted....i did everythin wid da gang (jan,nitya,nisha,wayne,redy,steff) like shoppin, billiards, pub, clubbin, loafin arnd, fulin arnd, watch movies, clean da house, make maggie, da twinies bday, da church n dinner fer deir parents anniversary...awesumnes...like everythin...ohh i even got drunk...i made jan do sum work n take care of me...duh!!!!she had to bunk more coll fer my sake wer shes already pretty short fer attendence...:P

I waz in blore till da 23rd....24th mornin i left fer bombay and on 26th dats today...(was) i came back to dubai....its so weird how a person cant get enuf of sumthin...yea i started misssin jan as soon as i reached bombay....also all da stuff i waz doin wid dese peepz...but i felt happy cumin back after diz change....meetin aak n saph after a span of a lil more dan 2 weeks in da same old sheesha cafe of ours....da lame jokes,da pickin on me as usual....i missed so muj of all dat wen i waz in blore...(god diz chick is impossible:P)

Well i dunno i waz onl gettin done wid da 120 mails dat piled up durin da time i waz travellin n a particular thingy wich i checked (not a mail) brought back not so pleasant memories...n i got diz urge to blog....well newaz i m over da former bit but den suddenly i start missin da jan man....so muj....it waz weird...coz it waz like a tick n boom!!! well i hav my same old ways to feel better n den a line told to me made me feel even better...i like...newaz i m done fer now...

(close post)...

Seems Much Better

Heya folks...well yea after my long list of frustrated and blah posts, Cuckud rites a nice one...datz coz i m feelin much better today..however everythin goin smoothly n nicely n in my favour also freaks me out...(damn shes hopeless:P) no coz it seems like da calm before another storm...hmm nevermind....
Its like da past few days i hav been like sooo frustrated and depressed...its sad coz all da things involved are so petite, keep happenin one after da other n den jus pile up n lead to diz massive pissy phase...i freaked out my parents bout diz...i was like so cranky and angry and senti...like omggg!!!

Newaz updatin bout me life...coll is closed and i hav vaccations till da 18th feb...i started workin frm sunday n will work till thursday....on same thursday i got my finalz fer da pepsi tournament in global village...so whoever reads diz before thursday dun fegget to hope fer da best fer me n me team...:P hey friday agn i hav other matches to play...n sat..i shall not reveal..n fer those who no sshuush...:D rite now i m jus hopin dat everythin goes accordin to planz n goes well...coz if it doesnt den KaBoOm...:P cuckud will no like.....

Ok now i cant think of nemore to say...i had to update since ppl r bored of seein da same post everyday....(yea i shall dedicate diz post to u....MY LOUE :P:P:P)

P.S - 'Painter Dude' and 'Child' are meany meany ppl coz dey irritate da shit outta me over da things wich i blurted wen i very recently got sloshed....:$ U both suck :( :P :(
but da 'painter dude' totally rocked it to safety....thnx....:P yea rite Baalzz!

P.S agn - After soo long da medicine of blahness bottle opened n relieved....luv it, muah....

Hmmm i m done fer now.....tadazzz....

Kill Me Bitch, Kill Me Slow...

Sitting alone randomly,
with a cigarette in the mouth,
Take a slow drag,
and breathe it back out.

Inhale the damn thing with a sweet smile,
gather the smoke and slowly let it pile.

Tell me how it feels?
seems like all the troubles healed.

But do you realise what it does to me?
I wish you could peak and have a see.

Have you felt packed in a room full of smoke?
you want to escape but you have no hope.

Kill Me Bitch, Kill Me Slow...
but might as well do it in one go.

Like stabbing knife one lung at a time,
f*** all the respiration in a line.

Give me in like for a debt,
I am screwed, which you don't get.

How about inhaling again?
but without a smile...
How about letting your thoughts?
create a new and better file...

Try to realise that it is wrong,
stop over-estimating that i am strong.

Quit the damn drags,
please! let me breathe...
do me a favour...???
delay the wear of the 'ulitimate wreath'

Or...

KILL ME BITCH, KILL ME SLOW...
But might as well do it in one go...!!!

Recollections

Hmm..i waz sittin and tweezin my upper lip wen i started thinkin...not dat my mind doesnt think on a normal basis but yea sumthin in specific fer a change...

Well i m suppsoed to b goin to watch da sports day of my skool tomm...n i cant tell u how sad i m...
i kinda realised how i wont b runnin on dat same track of dat same stadium tomm..!!
i realised i will b watchin da whole thing but i wont b oh so nervous n my heart poundin jus before da whistle...
how i wont b one of da so many ppl who keep fingers crossed to hear da end results of da sports day champs n da march past winners...
how i wont b counting how many certificates i got or comparin medals wid da other chicks...

So yea dats a few of da million thoughts dat flashed thru my head bout sports day...besides dat i cant believe how much i hav been missin skool past few days...prolly da whole realisation wich i failed to realise wen i left skool is cumin crashin down rite now??!!! Its really sad man...da whole innocence of bein skool kids, tuitions, skool uniform ( believe me i pretty much get frustrated at times in da mornin wen i hav to decide wat to wear to coll everyday!!), 'recess' - how after those 4 long borin periods we got to hog fer like merely 20 minz..., da strict attendin of class wer bunkin waz so not easy, ASSEMBLIES....gosh how can i ferget dem...atleast i prayed fer dat reason one of da few things in da mornin..., crazy lil skool kid indulgences, aaahhhh.......

I feel like a freggin old woman now.....! Also in abt 2 mnths time i will start livin my last teen year...n wht den...HAW I M NO MORE A TEEN!!!!? no i wudnt wana hear dat....

Cumon time u goin too fast...slow down bitch....!!!!

P.S - not to ferget i started coll like a few mnths back n time has raced so fast dat i m almost gonna finish 1st sem....Brutal reality of now....xamz...fer wich i m supposed to work my ass but i aint doin dat....Damn....GOD DUDE bless me...!

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The Dunce Cap

Here as i am sitting in class,
One random chick among the mass.

Half way through my first sem,
Moving towards the feel of an unwanted gem.

Why do my high spirits don't work?
Why don't they flow and perk?

Ignorance, loner soul and extreme sensitivity,
They seem to work wonders!!!?
And my way piles up with minor blunders...

The EGO receives a hard slap,
CuCkUd don't like the dunce cap...
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Yaha rote diz during a lecture of communication studies...y wud i rite diz? well i was feelin bad and stupid since i aint really happy wid my internal marks...newaz...laterzz...

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Riqqa Carnival Randomness

Heyloo all u ppl out der...Merry Christmas (Belated:P) Damn once agn its been so long since i blogged....get so bizi wid coll dese days...assignments,presentations, tests - u name it and u hav it...but newaz read diz one its funn...:)

Once upon a time.....naha i m totally kidding...:P
But still me and aakanksha had gone to diz kewl carnival kinda thing in riqqa arnd two weeks back (Supposedly on 11th dec - day of history test) which was a totally kewlness xperience...well da plan came outta random boredom...we got down at riqqa both of us n went to eat at diz totally kewl place 'breakfast breakfast' (i no weird name but the cheese manakish is not weird) isa seski food....n den we were jus walkin wen we reached diz carnival place wich was deserted since it waz arnd 2 in da afteroon or after...so we thot of takin a small tour around :) lolz...i dun really remember da order of our random crapiness we did arnd but we had diz funny wrestling match in diz small area where i think shud hav been da jumping thingi ( i dunno wht do u call it) which was deflated at dat time:P we got diz free fulin arnd to do in diz place which had trampoline kinda nets....we took permission frm da single dude over der who was sittin in a booth...ohh we even went on da giant wheel....n were swingin da lowermost carrier...:P nd da best part was wen we went to xplore da not workin at dat time ghost house....*teehee*...i can still remember we ruined quite a few things der like...

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We drew a bindhi fer one of da ghost....:P we even cut of 2 small pieces as souvenirs from da cloth dat was tied arnd it..

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Another random ghost of dat house:p

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Der was diz other skeleton dude who waz wearing a mask of which we tore of 2 teeth again as souvenirs...:P

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The place waz greasy, darkkk, dirty and stuffy but it was fun foolin arnd inside...

I was jus thinkin imagine if sumone absent mindedly saw us movin arnd der...wht wud dey think who it wud b??? da thot cracks me up....lolzz....

However we had like assload of fun and den we finally went home after all our craziness....i wish i had time to post bout diz earlier but damn coll restricts me frm doin a lot of thinz dese days....

I m out fer now....hav fun peepz
Muah....

Frustration Gets The Better of Me

So like most of u guys no i started coll arnd 3 months back....yea it seemed so gud da fact dat i m now in coll yayzzz!!! :S
not really... i remember postin about my 1st day of coll bein completely enthusiactic bout it...but alas...dat does not xsist nemore....COLLEGE totally annoys me...!!!

I am a little more than 'totally frustrated' rite now....
Damn i was suppose to post bout diz totally kewl time me n aakanksha had at dat small carnival kind of thingi in riqqa but i dun hav time to rite....(i will post it soon though...it waz one heck of a kewl day..) but yea rite then how am i ritin diz post...? well bcoz i want to whineee....i cant help it....like a word vomit dats all i do...keep pukin whines n cribs on all da ppl whom i usually talk wid a lot...well its all bout dealin wid little issues here n der everyone keeps sayin...nd i no i aint da only one goin thru dese but stilll i dunno why i cant seem to deal wid dem....orr why i cant seem to keep my mouth shut n be normal n think life aint so tuf..yea so i wana whine bout it...yeaaa soo whtt....?!!?

Well i no wht xactly has ticked me offf soooo bloody much..its jus one thing....but all da other small random things r jus add-ons to make an already helpless situation worse...yeah more dan hating dat one thing i actually hate da fact dat i can not really do much to change it....whyyy? damnit...!!

Its like i m suddenly bein pushed to nowhere as soon as possible fer sum damn reason wich i fail to realise...nd xactly y my mind fails to cooperate wid me to move dat quickly...i m slow...i m waiitin...(for wht...? search me!) which i no is not goin to do nethin but land me into shit....nd yet i m slow! i only seem to b gettin really disappointed wid everythin...anger is like rite der..even if u mite try sayin hie fer sum ppl it pisses me off. its like i wana fite....seems like i m lukin fer reasons to yell at sumone. Its like i need a huge whack! on da head like wake up woman whts rong wid uuu??? y are u sucha typical emotional fool...why do u have to think so much and worry bout every stupid business arnd u....y not like jus breathe rite? but no....cuckud has lost it!!!

Da only options i wish i cud practice now...(none of which r possible really.)
1) hibernate totally n not wake up fer i guess eternity....
2) run away from da entire world and jus be alone...
3) ok if i cant really run away den atleast be in solitude fer somthin at sum place like a beach...(diz is weird...i hav suddenly started approvin of beaches...i dunno if ppl remember but i alwayz used to say how beaches gimme da weird vibes...)
4) beat da shit outta sumthin or jus go wild wid nethin....nethin dat wud help...

And surely....i totally seem to be cryin fer no reason...like y? prolly coz i hate bein a cry babie n da fact dat i m so sensitive makes me shed tears...or is it my anger which is like so bad nd so intense dat da fumes condense back into da water form n jus pour? or is it jus dat i m plain frustrated n hav lost it....?

nevermind....let me give u people a break n yet agn try another unsuccessful attempts of gettin a life....!!!
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Shay - The Hero

At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves learning disabled children,the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended.

After extolling the school and its dedicated staff, he offered a question: "When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does is done with perfection.?
Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do. Where is the natural order of things in my son?"

The audience was stilled by the query. The father continued. "I believe,that when a child like Shay, physically and mentally handicapped comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes, in the way other people treat that child."Then he told the following story:

Shay and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball. Shay asked,"Do you think they'll let me play?" Shay's father knew that most of the boys would not want someone ! like Shay on their team, but the father also understood that if his son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps.
Shay's father approached one of the boys on the field and asked if Shay could play, not expecting much. The boy looked around for guidance and said, "We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning." Shay struggled over to the team's bench put on a team shirt with a broad smile and his Father had a small tear in his eye and warmth in his heart. The boys saw the father's joy at his son being accepted. In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three. In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the right field. Even though no hits ! came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as his father waved to him from the stands.
In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again. Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat. At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game?
Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible 'cause Shay didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball. However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing the other team putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least be able to make contact. The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed. The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly >towards Shay. As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher. The game would now be over, but the pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman. Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game. Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the head of the first baseman, out of reach of all team mates. Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, "Shay, run to first! Run to first!" Never in his life had Shay ever ran that far but made it to first base. He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled. Everyone yelled, "Run to second, run to second!" Catching his breath, Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to second base. By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the ball, the smallest guy on their team, who had a chance to be the hero for his team for the first time. He could have thrown the ball to the second-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions and he too intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head. Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home. All were screaming, "Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay" Shay reached third base, the opposing shortstop ran to help him and turned him in the direction of third base, and shouted, "Run to third Shay, run to third" As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams and those watching were on their feet were screaming, "Shay, run home! Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the "grand slam" and won the game for his team.

That day, said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world. Shay didn't make it to another summer and died that winter, having never forgotten being the hero and making his Father so happy and coming home and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!
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I hav a question...i dunno fer sum reason i dun like da fact dat ppl had to let Shay win da game on purpose...isnt dat like pity? i mean shudnt it b all bout acceptin da fact? i dunno if i asked da same way i wanted to ask but yea lemme no newaz..

End fellaz..muahh...

It Made Me 'Think'

I got this as a fwrded email...!
End....!

Someday U'll Lose

Do u fear sumthin...? can sumthin or sumone really freak da shit outta u?
For me it can....it really can...
Da anxiety, da feelin to get outta der right now, da shiver,da tears, da frustration, da helplessness..i can go on n on bout it....

On a normal basis i m supposed to b one of those 'g' type of tomboy gurls but diz fear totally hurts ma ego...

How does one get over a fear man? yea ok dun gimme da usual crappy line...'Face It'.. i hav had it like frm almost all my friends who know about this fear...but yea suppose dat way doesnt help den wht???

Another thing is there r 2 kinda ppl....
1) who can hide their fear n pretend.
2) who get hysterical, nervous, wild, etc n find it very difficult to control it.

I m da latter kind...

Imagine wen u miss so many things bcoz of da fear factor present der, wich otherwise u wud so totally luv doin..hav u tried thinkin wht kinda feelin wud dat b?

I have....so many times...

Another worst thing...Wen Sumone Laughs or Mocks Bout Ur Fear??!!! nd probably da unoffcial manner to think ur dum..."omg...cumon wht does it really do to u??", "omgg how cum dat scares u...luk at me"!!! (YA RITE SUCKER!!!!)For me i personally feel dose r da most shittiest ppl on diz earth...like hello u wud never no how it feels until n unless u actually cum to da point wer u totally feel like peein in ur pants..especially for those kinds who luckily r lucky enuf not to b scared to face nethin or do nethin but yet are totally gud fer nudin slobs....!DAMN...!
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Fear Vs Faith

Its here...thats it...i can't bear it,
slices me apart,
drowning me in the fear pit...

The devoted flow of tears,
techno mix of the heartbeat,
makes the hand reach for ears...

Thats it..Please can u cease?
i just cannot take it,
my breath demands back its ease...

Haha gurl u wish i waz the angel,
to complete ur sparkle,
but i am generous giving dread and dull...

Immense pleasure to see you suffer,
ur pain makes me smile,
i pity u for ur puny buffer...

"This cannot go on forever,
i close my mind with a wait,
for the day which seems like never..."

A seemingly fought one-sided struggle,
where my faith is in peril,
the self-esteem faces a juggle...

Anticipation is getting the better of me,
a wait to kick the fear's butt,
realisation to give of how panic may be...

Because one day the faith will be superior,
irregardless of the time it takes,
one day the dread will get a peer...

And yet...

i close my mind with a wait,
counting,waiting and hoping...!

P.S - No mention or revealing bout da fear factor in da comments plzz....lolz...
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Wow Its Been A Year :D

Heylooo....
I m like really happy today....
Its my bloggie's bday...
It turned 'one year'...lolz...

"Friday, November 04, 2005
my 1st blog post...
posted by cuckud at 1:01 AM 0 comments"

P.S - Happy Birthday to me blog....i luv it sooo much....wudnt no wer i wud go if i hadnt had diz to post on...so muahhhhh to it....

:D

Sign of Relief

Guess whoz back!!!?? Yaha da cuckud n her blog...lolz..

Recently arnd i think the 5th of october - my blog waz identified as a spam blog n i needed to verify it..godd da blogger team is pretty slow i must say...they took so long to process da 3 verifications wich i sent..newaz after it waz unblocked goshhh i waz sooo happiee...yea rite i still cudnt post....damnit...den i sent diz huge mail to dem xplainin whts goin on n wht i shud b doin?
After a longggg wait finally ysterday dat is da 24th of oct i got a reply frm dem sayin to clear my browser's cache..wow so dats all dat was rong wid my site...i wish i new dat waz it all dese days i wudnt hav to wait na...!but whtever now my blog is workin as good as ever...teehee...*wild dances*:D

So da prev post now luks like reportin bout one of me long gone weekend...:p

In the meanwhile lotsa stuff had been goin on wich i so totally wanted to rite but i cudnt n now wile i can da moment is gone:{ well mebbe i cud jus highlite those like...

• i get to play pretty muj of bball like before wid my coll mates n few other frds wich is yayzz..
• i had even gone to aakanksha's place n we played sum gud billiards n den even went fer sheesha...lodsa fun..so now i even hav a painter frd!!!:D (sory aakanksha..i cudnt resist ritin diz:))
• diwali n eid has been pretty ok...not been goin out muj xcept family thingi....yawn:P
• I got my Pay Cheque so i m rich fer now.....:D
• last week in coll on a thurs wen we r supposed to hav full 8 classes were cut short to 4 coz of rangoli n henna competition..da second half of sameday waz like totally kewl coz few of us ended up playin stuff like 'who stole da cookies frm da cookie shop, black shoe, dog n da bone n goin crazie wid other thinz' lolz..oh and u need to check out da rangolis damn sum of dem were neat...

http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e149/misscool_88/dawinningdesign1.jpg

(dat design bagged da 1st place)

http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e149/misscool_88/Nda2ndplacegoestoooO.jpg

(hmm diz one got da second)

http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e149/misscool_88/rangolientry-masscomm.jpg

(n i think diz waz supposed to b the third one...but newaz diz waz da most unique theme of all n it waz our class entry.....too gud rite?)

http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e149/misscool_88/Masscomerstheonlysectionwhoweredeck.jpg

(check out me n my classmates)

http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e149/misscool_88/FullofGiggles.jpg

(well i aint here but more of me classmates)
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Well i didnt no a blog can matter so much man...like really past few days i had bcum so emo coz i didnt hav my blog fer postin...like omgg...i jus cudnt stop whinin....n ysterday da min i saw da 'publish post' button back to normal omggg i so totally felt like huggin my monitor:$ no really....!lolzz....i m such a freak...its k i no....:D

(applause)
end.!

Weekend Mania

My update might b faster dan xpected...:P well i jus cud not, not post bout my full of fun weekend.

5th October, Thursday - I had a whole day of coll..yea right now dat sounds interesting...:S da whole point was that i was supposed to take my car to coll n den me n few of my classmates were gonna go fer bowlin...so mornin i even got my car n i picked up one of my frd in deira n we were on our way...guess wht did i do??? i took a u turn n nicely sped a lil more dan required since i thot dat my car wud make da turn but it banged da footpath n da tyre went completely flat...wow....so i hadda pull the car in da parkin n din quite no wht to do...moreover i so thot dat i waz royally screwed....but i called sameer n luckily he waz arnd so he came to my rescue...but guess wht da spare tyre waz also jacked...lolz....so finally i called my dad n told him dat da tyre got punctured...noo i did not get screwed...SuRpRiSiNgLy......! well poor sameer he hadda drop me n my frd to coll..after coll got over we had to use the quasis bus to get to dubai bowlin centre...me, sapphire, karen, cavan and imran - we were da ones who went...1st we played pool..den we went fer bowlin...den we walked to century mall to buy food wich we even ate...:P den back to DBC fer foosball....n den finally we even did sheesha....wow so many things...in one day..it waz one of da most coolest things ever....i mean we had like soooo much of fun....jus wow...:D but wile gettin back saph n me thot we were pretty screwed coz we cudnt find a cab n it waz after 10....:O but both of us survived...n it wud hav been so much easier if i hadnt banged da car, punctured da tyre n took it to coll..pfft....but we had assload of fun man....yayzzz...

6th October, Friday - Today me n my sis took my parents n bro to a resort in jebel ali...well it waz my mommy's bday last week so we wanted to giv her a surprise....now da resort waz like omg sexy thing in a desert....i fergot da name of da resort...:$ but wen we got der 1st we hit da pool wen none of us knew how to swim....heeh...but walkin arnd in da pool waz also kewl....:) den we chnged n went to hav lunch wich waz an international buffet n waz also soooo gudddd....next came the beach wer all of us sat down to relax.....it was so peacefull...i m usually weird on beaches n dey tend to depress me or rather give me negative or weird vibes if u can call it...but surprisingly i felt gud today....sittin der alone lost in my world...:) newaz den we went to play table - tennis (me, my bro n me sis) n we even played badminton after dat....well it waz really gud to sweat out a lil bit of calories wich i gained frm da desert wich i hogged in da buffet..omgg...complete CHOCOLATEness.....:P:P after dat we headed home n all of dem r like dead tired by now....n i m still ok... n i m even postin rite now..!

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Haan so my weekend has been so totally filled wid fun n tomm is saturday wen i waz supposed to go n play bball wid coll frds agn but guess wht....i havent touched my books or finished my assignments fer sunday.....so i guess i will b at home...:( n omgg today i felt upset as well...

Jus think all u guys...wht if ur really close to winnin in sumthin u r really gud at n equally deservin victory but u lose....???!!! wht wud u feel at dat point of time??? ok why i asked diz is coz i waz watchin sa re ga ma pa lil champs (shut up.....its a very nice show okk...!!) n ders diz lil kid named abhrokanti who sings xtremely well got eliminated in today's episode. apparently he shudnt hav n ders diz other kid who sings not as gud as da former but is blind kid so it seems hes bin gettin more votes (public) outta sympathy rather dan talent....i m blah coz of dat....:( i so totally felt sumthin depressin after i watched dat...i dunno...

P.S - The post is longgg....ooopz..

P.P.S - My blog waz identified as a spam blog which is absurd n i had to get it verified so dat i can use my blog like before agn....pffft...how dare dey..? :(

P.P.P.S - Isnt my new dp here so cute??? i dun usually like flowers but da smiley is YELLOW....wow.....:D

I m out ppl...hope ur still awake n alive after readin fer so long...:P:P muahhh....;)

I Fail...Or Am I Failing???

I fail to see the truth
blinded by the phony prospect

I fail to hear the peaceful silence
deafened by the mimicked voices

I fail to take the invisible hand
fooled by the plastic limb

I fail to speak the line
gagged with confused speech

I fail to understand the meaning
my self dictionary stabbed me

Seems i have forgotten to smile,
though i flash my teeth.

Seems i have forgotten to breath,
though my nose inhales the air.

Seems i have forgotten to express,
though i puke words constantly.

Seems i have forgotten to take,
each day as it comes.

Seems i have tried to hard,
but for the wrong cause.

Its all in the mind...Thoughts...
And as i THINK and Think and think...

I fail...or am i failing???

First Day of 'NEW SKOOL' !?!

Heylooo people...hmmm...improvement!!! now almost 2 days to complete a month fer abandonin my bloggie dearest :S

Oh btw had my 1st day of college today...lolz...i m in my 1st year alreadyyy????:O

Well 1st day waz pretty slow n kinda borin as far as da classes r concerned...jus da general introductory classes.....oh guess wht i already missed a class on da 1st day of ma coll...hehe...well no i did nt do dat intentionally. we were told dat we can go and eat n so me n my frd thot it waz a break or sumthin n were in da cafeteria...well der waz a class meanwhile...so yea.. btw dat frd i went wid is a new one - akansha..(i think dats how u wud spell her name?) well nice female..not a typical gurl n i m happiee bout dat...well even got to no pretty many other kids so it waz pretty ok...

Besides da seniors did try to rag us n dey sucked at it....well i m sure if it haadnt been for da recent bits raggin issue happenin dey wud hav been muj better at it...but dey made akansha dance n i waz supposed to do dat next but da supervisor came in....lolz...i didnt get ragged :D
basically it waz jus frdly raggin n few of da senior guys luked gud...actually less dan few..oh but our batch damnit...!!! so far i havent settled my eyes on even one gorgeous chick dude!! hmph!! lolz...oh and da seniors hav diz trip planned fer us to desert safari fer only 50 bucks..which i think is pretty neat so i may go fer dat....

Newayz diz seems like really fun n xcitin frm da way i see it....n after da huge break of 6mnths widout ne studies n books, i m lukin fwrd to studyin fer now...:P wich i dunno will last fer how long...hahah..

Newaz i m out fer now...
Cheers n tadaaa......

Wana Go Fer A Ride Babie

Heylooo all u ppl out der....omgg rite ssup wid meenal..? she sounds happy...now dats not her usual attribute is it?? lolz...shut up....i m happy coz.....

"I FINALLY PASSED MY FUCKIN ROAD TEST....SO NOW I M A VALID DUBAI DRIVIN LICENSE HOLDER..."

Ohh but since it is a public holiday tomm i shall only get my license on tuesday hopefully since we r supposed to attend diz stupid final lecture 1st...so yeaa....

And omg today i almost thot dat i am gonna fail agn coz of my mistakes diz time....unlike last two times wer it waz bad luck....but she passed me....dese ppl r like crazy...seriously...i need to mention diz dat da very 1st mistake i did waz that i waz ready to start drivin widout puttin on da 'SEAT BELT' :P but da female behind me reminded me n da examiner noticed dat...i still passed.....so who cares riteee......!!!!!:D

So today i m like really happy n i actually started cryin like crazy once i got my pass paper...coz i waz so sure i wudnt pass today coz i did mistakes....but i passed.....

Oh btw guess wht ppl....."I FUCKIN PASSED" LOLzzz......:D:D:D:D

Ok enuf too muj excitement is not gud fer health...so i shall stop....

But i passed.......:D ok ok final stop....

cheers n muahhh.....;)

Oh My God

Hmmmm....i realised if i wudnt hav blogged fer another 4 days den it wud b a month since i din post nethin on my blog...disgraceful...!!! nd OMGGG...!

Ok jan let me dedicate diz post to u....:P yea i miss u loads....:X

Alrite i will start typin sumthin worth readin before ppl start clickin deir windows off....work has been goin gud n i hav been havin loads of fun...yea at work:P but its kinda sad how i cant really use my pay fer nethin else xcept payin fer my drivin....its fuckin EXPENSIVE mann....arghh...yea i failed my 1st attempt of road test n paid 300 agn fer another 6 classes n den 80 fer another road test.....
but guess wht i failed da 2nd attempt too....so 380 to pay agn!! so now i m not sure if its da luck or i actually suck so bad....coz i m learnin auto...so yea...but whtever i alwayz hav a bright side fer all my blah stuff n diz one has too....i will survive...lolzz....

Its kinda annoyin how my last 2 posts only revolve arnd my work n drivin...nd its so sad how i dun hav nethin to rite bout suddenly...damn....but well i found diz kewl way of gettin over issues...coz like last few days i waz really low n crap...so i had diz kewl pep talk wid my own self n i actually felt so much bettterrr.....dat waz day b4 ysterday n to make thinz even better i went fer lunch wid naus also ysterday....well it waz lotsss of fun.....n da day before we both freaks had even walked back to deira frm karama crossin da maktoum bridge....:D (fer ppl who think we hav lost it believe me its one of da best thinz to do....coz it waz soo muj funnn...)

On other random thinz i hav injured my left hand pointer finger...hapnd wile playin bball at insportz...yea hurtz...nd i got diz really bad blister on my left foot wich is pissin da shit outta me...ND i m sick coz i hav caught da flu.....

Now dat i hav given da proof dat i still exist i shall end diz post....:P

Good Day fellaz...muahhh.....